due to much persuasion, force, peer pressure, threats and violence, i have defected to livejournal.
it is with a heavy heart and much sorrow that i leave "soundofmysoul". :(

this place has too much bad memories. i will start afresh.



here: http://lilmisslalaa.livejournal.com
TUNE IN TO MORE EXCITING STORIES THERE!



btw, i'm not sucidal. i will live on. i will b strong. -brave smile-

back with a new twist to the previous hypothetical qns!

scenario B:
everything the same as scenario A...
instead, you are MARRIED to chris already by the time andy returns.

would your choice still be the same?

what will you do?
have an affair with andy behind chris' back?
leave chris for andy?
or tell andy goodbye, forever.

some hypothetical questions to ponder upon:

scenario A:
you are happily together with this guy for years.
(lets name him andy - a COMPLETELY random name heh)
you adore each other and love him dearly.
however, life is too good to be true.
one day, without any warning, he leaves you. without any trace.
you are devastated.
in come guy number two.
(lets name him chris - completely random too!)
he is the perfect guy.
he is sweet, attentive, loving, super duper nice to you.
he was there for you during your darkest moments, helping you get over your loss.
he is everything a girl could wish for.
the only catch is that though you have feelings for him, its not the "awwwwww" love that you had with andy. but love nonetheless.
you decided to be with chris.
you two have a sweet, serene and peaceful relationship.

TWO YEARS LATER,
andy returns.
(cue - thunder sound!)
he comes back to find you and explained to you why he left.
he had a brain tumour and he thought he was going to die.
he doesn't want you to watch him die...
now that he is well, he wants to be with you again.

who would you choose?

a hypothetical question thought up by me and gun on our looooong bus number 30 rides.
trust us, we have MORE :)
guess who we chose? haha.
who would you choose, friends??

hello blog!
i need some help heh.
this little problem has been bugging me for ages!!

mirror mirror on the wall, tell me which dress should i buy?
do vote!
pls restrict your votes to TWO only cos sadly, money does not grow on trees :(

(From the top: Topshop, Dano, F21, Mango)





















super bimbotic i know.
but i'm a girl after all, pardon me (:

on a completely separate and random note, yoga performance tmr!
12 weeks of yoga lessons jus flown past like that.
and tmr is graduation day.
the instructors selected some of us to perform some postures on stage.
poor mummy is very indignant that she did not get selected haha, i think she is really good for a 50 year old woman.
me and the sister are going up - she is doing the shoulder stand and the back arch while i'm doing the bow, the archer and the fish stance as shown here:



































hope i am up to it tmr morning.
exciting!
think the last time i performed on stage was in primary school, for some stupid CME skit haha.
should not have eaten that extra piece of sinful vienna double chocolate cookie sigh.

anyway friends, yoga really does work (:
i feel healthier and more at peace with my body after just 12 shorts weeks.
its a holistic well-being from within.
well, it even cures constipation!

Bahasa Indo!

HALLO HALLO HALLO!
Selamat pagi, apa kabar blog blog blog?
Saya sudah satu tahun tidak update, maaf maaf maaf!

Saya baik baik saja.
Saya dan teman teman sekarang di LT 12.
Teman teman namanya Amanda dan Juliana.
Kita juga ada teman baru. Dia namanya Irene =)

Kita sedang di EL 2111 lecture.
Lecturenya TIDAK menarik, tetapi lecturernya lucu sekali!
Rambut dia pendek, pakai kacamata yang retro!

Sekarang kita lapar sekali, belum makan siang.
Sebenarnya, kita tidak mau datang ke lecture tetapi hari ini, ada guest lecturer, jadi harus datang :(

UH OH, kata lecturer, nanti dia mau VOLUNTEERS!!!
Bagaimana???

*For a literal translation, please call 93885402 or 96275511.
They need to practise for their bahasa test haha.

Foto yang di bawar ada dua teman baik saya! Saya senang mereka (: Mereka juga senang saya.

hello!
at an internet cafe in jakarta now..nothing else to do but blog cos yong sung jie has gone offline! haha.
PLUS, i have sworn off sgselltrade for a while now cos i'm spending way too much here!
REALLY really supporting indo's economy man!

have not blogged in ages..hmm...
june hols now, enjoying my break from relief teaching tremendously! =)
however that break from Coral had caused me and yong sung jie to be addicted to sgselltrade, leaving our mark all over! heh.

oh yar!
but enterprising and diligent us had embarked on an ambitious plan to hand-sew tote bags!
and we did it!
looks quite pretty, haha.
basically, we had an OVERDOSE of each other..i think we met every single day for that entire week :(
only frennnnnn....!

met up with chawmun and zhimian quite often too!
sunday morning breakfasts are devoted to them..
haha, the "untouchables", or so zhimain dubs us..
even though it may sound like a very compliment, a very sweet one even, i have a nagging suspicion that it is a disguised insult, implying that we are loser-ish spinsters!
I REALLY SUSPECT haha.

watched my very first m18 show, NAKED AVENGERS.
i got cheated by wm the worm man!!!!
just looking at the title, one would know that it was a perverted RA show but noooooooooooooooooo...the worm insisted that it was PG! grrrr.....!
it was HORRIBLE.
lots of lust and blood and killing and nonsense..
gave me nightmares for DAYS!

set up a ZOUK stall!
it was such an experience!
i think the preparation and all was such great fun!
sewing sashes..
opening jump rings..
pliers.
chinatown.
cutting cloth..
eating mama dee's excellent beef horfun.
and best of all, ogling at the cute hot guys that went to the flea market.
(no kor, i am NOT referring to you)

drank my first alcoholic drink at chjimes!
and most importantly, NOT get drunk!
haha, it tasted like cough mixture though..strawberry magarita.
should not have listened to wm's suggestion.
the band was great though ;)

coffee club/stayover on 25/5/06.
participants: juliana ong YONG SUNG, dee dee and ame!
can be summed up it one line: "PLAY THE FUNKY MUSIC NOWWWWWWW!!!!"
hahahah!
photo collage day.
ame's sudden burst "i'm really happy frens!"

ok, gtg!!
take care my dearest frens in spore, london and nafa!!
muacks!

I realised that I have not been blogging for AGES..more than a month.
haha, totally forgot about the existence of this blog..

hmm..lets see..not much has happened over the last month..
Went to Hong Kong with Julie and Lyanna during the March hols.
The trip was FABULOUS.
It was a whirlwind non-stop activity of both shopping AND eating..heh.
And Jolly Julie chalked up a shocking amount of booboos!!
She was really silly..suspected case of souls-swoppping!
Took lots of pics..will post some up here :)

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Yup, in essence, we had lots of fun!
Must do it again soon =))

Other than HK, life has been rather uneventful.
Life revolves around nothing but Coral, Kumon and tuition..But I am not complaining.
haha, at least I enjoy my jobs..love what I am doing..
AND the money is good!
On top of that, jolly julie has joined me in Coral too!!
Though they dont call her everyday, they call her often enough to keep me happy!
At least, there is someone to accompany me other than MR weirdo HH (ok, fine, thats mean. He is really a very nice guy ;) )
On days that she is not down, the gangs antics keep me occupied.
Which reminds me of HOW unfairly kevin was caned PUBLICLY.
THREE TIMES.
Grrrr...!

Words cant expressed how outraged and disturbed I was to witness his public humiliation.
If only I had just a bit more power in Coral..
And now, he has been suspended, for TWO whole weeks.
Gosh, have a little compassion..
This poor boy is in sec 5, his O level year..how in the world is he gonna catch up in his work if he misses two weeks of school?!?!
To make things worse, he is essentially NOT a bad guy..
If he is all that horrible and hopeless, would he have helped me out and scare off those little perverts when I first came into Coral?
Unfair!!

Ok, enough of my nonsensical rambling.
haha, time for some intellectual academic talk!
SURPRISINGLY, my results were not too bad, ie, I can remain in Singapore!
Granted, to some (the 400+ RJC students who scored straight As), my results are sucidal-worthy, I am utterly contented.
It was a miracle.
Applied to business admin and FASS in NUS..hopefully, I wont be admitted to biz and can get into FASS! =))
Applying to business was just to make my dad happy..my interests lies in FASS.
English language or even psychology sounds great!

Another round of NS enlistment last week..
Seized away some of my favourite guy buds like Mr Koh Wee Meng and Mr Tan Zhi Mian.
Quite saddening!
Without zm, who is gonna bake cookies and cheesecake for me??
Who is going to eat Cartel and watch movies with me after school???
Without wm, who is gonna listen to all my problems when I am down??
Who is gonna be there for me to disturb and bully at night???
Booboo.
I am gonna miss them alot, esp wm!!

Oh yea..I have made a resolution.
There is just simply too many admirable and amazing people around me.
Make me feel that there is just too much about myself that needs improvement.
To be a better daughter.
To be a better sister.
To be a better friend.
To be a better teacher.
I need to learn to be more patient, more sensitive, more understanding, more tolerant..
And STOP being so immature, so childish, so ignorant..
Hopefully, it can be achieved :)

Lots of beau monde projects coming up!
DIY-ing sessions..I cant wait!!
Oooohh...and amanda lim's birthday is next week..
haha, cant wait to see her horrified face when we reveal her blindfold, heh heh!

Long week ahead..
Hopefully jolly julie would be calld down tmr, so that we can go arab street-ing =))
haha, this is such a rubbishy entry filled with random thoughts.

Lastly, to you:
You will find someone better, I promise.
One who deserves all your love..one who can make you happy..one who can love you back whole-heartedly.
Sadly, we have both come to realise that I am not that person.
You will find her someday, in time to come.
Just wanted you to know that you have been a really good friend..and I would always remember all we have talked about and experienced together.
Take care ok?
And be that happy Mr PF you said you would be :)

The release of the A level results would be out this Wednesday.
SHIT.
I am officially dead.
And my horrible dreams, or rather, NIGHTMARES are so not helping.
How how how???!
My futurecold, lonely and SAD in Australia suddenly does not seem that far from reality.
I hope my long long looooong academic journey, all TEN years of it, ends on a pleasant note.
And all I want is not ambitious.
I dont need straight As.
Gosh, I dont even wanna THINK ABOUT scoring As.
That is impossible.
I would be immensely satisfied to be able to stay in a local uni..
And not fall back on my back up plans, boo boo.
-crosses fingers-

Ok, apart from my worries of the deep, dark and evil A level results..
Life has been pretty good so far :)
Coral sec has been great..
My workload has lessened a lot..
And I really love what I am doing now.
Interacting with the students..listening to their problems and their lives.
Sometimes, their problems make mine seem so trivial..frivolous even.
Parents divorces, financial difficulties, boyfriend demanding that one that one from them..blah blah..
Its a totally different world.
I think I am gonna miss them loads.

And meeting up with BKBM and 3menplanet has been awesome.
I love you guys!!! <3
BIG BIG BIG kissy smuackeroos.
Hahahaha….

Today is perhaps the worst day of my life in Coral Sec.
I'm revolted, absolutely.
Big booboo.
But thank goodness to the gang of sec 5 boys who settled it for me.
Max's protection really helped :)
Though Max had been MIA from school for a week already...his entourage did the job well.
Of cos, Ditzy Deedee and Jolly Julie made it all better too, muacks.

And, I am strong girl.

Is this clearer my dearies? :) Lovelove.