happily ever after_*

2007-04-04T16:09:00.000+08:00

due to much persuasion, force, peer pressure, threats and violence, i have defected to livejournal.
it is with a heavy heart and much sorrow that i leave "soundofmysoul". :(

this place has too much bad memories. i will start afresh.

here: http://lilmisslalaa.livejournal.com
TUNE IN TO MORE EXCITING STORIES THERE!

btw, i'm not sucidal. i will live on. i will b strong. -brave smile-

2007-04-02T15:50:00.000+08:00

back with a new twist to the previous hypothetical qns!

scenario B:
everything the same as scenario A...
instead, you are MARRIED to chris already by the time andy returns.

would your choice still be the same?

what will you do?
have an affair with andy behind chris' back?
leave chris for andy?
or tell andy goodbye, forever.

2007-04-02T00:16:00.000+08:00

some hypothetical questions to ponder upon:

scenario A:
you are happily together with this guy for years.
(lets name him andy - a COMPLETELY random name heh)
you adore each other and love him dearly.
however, life is too good to be true.
one day, without any warning, he leaves you. without any trace.
you are devastated.
in come guy number two.
(lets name him chris - completely random too!)
he is the perfect guy.
he is sweet, attentive, loving, super duper nice to you.
he was there for you during your darkest moments, helping you get over your loss.
he is everything a girl could wish for.
the only catch is that though you have feelings for him, its not the "awwwwww" love that you had with andy. but love nonetheless.
you decided to be with chris.
you two have a sweet, serene and peaceful relationship.

TWO YEARS LATER,
andy returns.
(cue - thunder sound!)
he comes back to find you and explained to you why he left.
he had a brain tumour and he thought he was going to die.
he doesn't want you to watch him die...
now that he is well, he wants to be with you again.

who would you choose?

a hypothetical question thought up by me and gun on our looooong bus number 30 rides.
trust us, we have MORE :)
guess who we chose? haha.
who would you choose, friends??

2007-04-01T01:11:00.000+08:00

hello blog!
i need some help heh.
this little problem has been bugging me for ages!!

mirror mirror on the wall, tell me which dress should i buy?
do vote!
pls restrict your votes to TWO only cos sadly, money does not grow on trees :(

(From the top: Topshop, Dano, F21, Mango)

super bimbotic i know.
but i'm a girl after all, pardon me (:

on a completely separate and random note, yoga performance tmr!
12 weeks of yoga lessons jus flown past like that.
and tmr is graduation day.
the instructors selected some of us to perform some postures on stage.
poor mummy is very indignant that she did not get selected haha, i think she is really good for a 50 year old woman.
me and the sister are going up - she is doing the shoulder stand and the back arch while i'm doing the bow, the archer and the fish stance as shown here:

hope i am up to it tmr morning.
exciting!
think the last time i performed on stage was in primary school, for some stupid CME skit haha.
should not have eaten that extra piece of sinful vienna double chocolate cookie sigh.

anyway friends, yoga really does work (:
i feel healthier and more at peace with my body after just 12 shorts weeks.
its a holistic well-being from within.
well, it even cures constipation!

Bahasa Indo!

2007-03-26T14:16:00.000+08:00

HALLO HALLO HALLO!
Selamat pagi, apa kabar blog blog blog?
Saya sudah satu tahun tidak update, maaf maaf maaf!

Saya baik baik saja.
Saya dan teman teman sekarang di LT 12.
Teman teman namanya Amanda dan Juliana.
Kita juga ada teman baru. Dia namanya Irene =)

Kita sedang di EL 2111 lecture.
Lecturenya TIDAK menarik, tetapi lecturernya lucu sekali!
Rambut dia pendek, pakai kacamata yang retro!

Sekarang kita lapar sekali, belum makan siang.
Sebenarnya, kita tidak mau datang ke lecture tetapi hari ini, ada guest lecturer, jadi harus datang :(

UH OH, kata lecturer, nanti dia mau VOLUNTEERS!!!
Bagaimana???

*For a literal translation, please call 93885402 or 96275511.
They need to practise for their bahasa test haha.

Foto yang di bawar ada dua teman baik saya! Saya senang mereka (: Mereka juga senang saya.

2006-06-15T14:27:00.000+08:00

hello!
at an internet cafe in jakarta now..nothing else to do but blog cos yong sung jie has gone offline! haha.
PLUS, i have sworn off sgselltrade for a while now cos i'm spending way too much here!
REALLY really supporting indo's economy man!

have not blogged in ages..hmm...
june hols now, enjoying my break from relief teaching tremendously! =)
however that break from Coral had caused me and yong sung jie to be addicted to sgselltrade, leaving our mark all over! heh.

oh yar!
but enterprising and diligent us had embarked on an ambitious plan to hand-sew tote bags!
and we did it!
looks quite pretty, haha.
basically, we had an OVERDOSE of each other..i think we met every single day for that entire week :(
only frennnnnn....!

met up with chawmun and zhimian quite often too!
sunday morning breakfasts are devoted to them..
haha, the "untouchables", or so zhimain dubs us..
even though it may sound like a very compliment, a very sweet one even, i have a nagging suspicion that it is a disguised insult, implying that we are loser-ish spinsters!
I REALLY SUSPECT haha.

watched my very first m18 show, NAKED AVENGERS.
i got cheated by wm the worm man!!!!
just looking at the title, one would know that it was a perverted RA show but noooooooooooooooooo...the worm insisted that it was PG! grrrr.....!
it was HORRIBLE.
lots of lust and blood and killing and nonsense..
gave me nightmares for DAYS!

set up a ZOUK stall!
it was such an experience!
i think the preparation and all was such great fun!
sewing sashes..
opening jump rings..
pliers.
chinatown.
cutting cloth..
eating mama dee's excellent beef horfun.
and best of all, ogling at the cute hot guys that went to the flea market.
(no kor, i am NOT referring to you)

drank my first alcoholic drink at chjimes!
and most importantly, NOT get drunk!
haha, it tasted like cough mixture though..strawberry magarita.
should not have listened to wm's suggestion.
the band was great though ;)

coffee club/stayover on 25/5/06.
participants: juliana ong YONG SUNG, dee dee and ame!
can be summed up it one line: "PLAY THE FUNKY MUSIC NOWWWWWWW!!!!"
hahahah!
photo collage day.
ame's sudden burst "i'm really happy frens!"

ok, gtg!!
take care my dearest frens in spore, london and nafa!!
muacks!

2006-04-09T20:22:00.001+08:00

I realised that I have not been blogging for AGES..more than a month.
haha, totally forgot about the existence of this blog..

hmm..lets see..not much has happened over the last month..
Went to Hong Kong with Julie and Lyanna during the March hols.
The trip was FABULOUS.
It was a whirlwind non-stop activity of both shopping AND eating..heh.
And Jolly Julie chalked up a shocking amount of booboos!!
She was really silly..suspected case of souls-swoppping!
Took lots of pics..will post some up here :)

Day ONE

Day Two

Day Three

Day Four

Yup, in essence, we had lots of fun!
Must do it again soon =))

Other than HK, life has been rather uneventful.
Life revolves around nothing but Coral, Kumon and tuition..But I am not complaining.
haha, at least I enjoy my jobs..love what I am doing..
AND the money is good!
On top of that, jolly julie has joined me in Coral too!!
Though they dont call her everyday, they call her often enough to keep me happy!
At least, there is someone to accompany me other than MR weirdo HH (ok, fine, thats mean. He is really a very nice guy ;) )
On days that she is not down, the gangs antics keep me occupied.
Which reminds me of HOW unfairly kevin was caned PUBLICLY.
THREE TIMES.
Grrrr...!

Words cant expressed how outraged and disturbed I was to witness his public humiliation.
If only I had just a bit more power in Coral..
And now, he has been suspended, for TWO whole weeks.
Gosh, have a little compassion..
This poor boy is in sec 5, his O level year..how in the world is he gonna catch up in his work if he misses two weeks of school?!?!
To make things worse, he is essentially NOT a bad guy..
If he is all that horrible and hopeless, would he have helped me out and scare off those little perverts when I first came into Coral?
Unfair!!

Ok, enough of my nonsensical rambling.
haha, time for some intellectual academic talk!
SURPRISINGLY, my results were not too bad, ie, I can remain in Singapore!
Granted, to some (the 400+ RJC students who scored straight As), my results are sucidal-worthy, I am utterly contented.
It was a miracle.
Applied to business admin and FASS in NUS..hopefully, I wont be admitted to biz and can get into FASS! =))
Applying to business was just to make my dad happy..my interests lies in FASS.
English language or even psychology sounds great!

Another round of NS enlistment last week..
Seized away some of my favourite guy buds like Mr Koh Wee Meng and Mr Tan Zhi Mian.
Quite saddening!
Without zm, who is gonna bake cookies and cheesecake for me??
Who is going to eat Cartel and watch movies with me after school???
Without wm, who is gonna listen to all my problems when I am down??
Who is gonna be there for me to disturb and bully at night???
Booboo.
I am gonna miss them alot, esp wm!!

Oh yea..I have made a resolution.
There is just simply too many admirable and amazing people around me.
Make me feel that there is just too much about myself that needs improvement.
To be a better daughter.
To be a better sister.
To be a better friend.
To be a better teacher.
I need to learn to be more patient, more sensitive, more understanding, more tolerant..
And STOP being so immature, so childish, so ignorant..
Hopefully, it can be achieved :)

Lots of beau monde projects coming up!
DIY-ing sessions..I cant wait!!
Oooohh...and amanda lim's birthday is next week..
haha, cant wait to see her horrified face when we reveal her blindfold, heh heh!

Long week ahead..
Hopefully jolly julie would be calld down tmr, so that we can go arab street-ing =))
haha, this is such a rubbishy entry filled with random thoughts.

Lastly, to you:
You will find someone better, I promise.
One who deserves all your love..one who can make you happy..one who can love you back whole-heartedly.
Sadly, we have both come to realise that I am not that person.
You will find her someday, in time to come.
Just wanted you to know that you have been a really good friend..and I would always remember all we have talked about and experienced together.
Take care ok?
And be that happy Mr PF you said you would be :)

2006-02-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

The release of the A level results would be out this Wednesday.
SHIT.
I am officially dead.
And my horrible dreams, or rather, NIGHTMARES are so not helping.
How how how???!
My futurecold, lonely and SAD in Australia suddenly does not seem that far from reality.
I hope my long long looooong academic journey, all TEN years of it, ends on a pleasant note.
And all I want is not ambitious.
I dont need straight As.
Gosh, I dont even wanna THINK ABOUT scoring As.
That is impossible.
I would be immensely satisfied to be able to stay in a local uni..
And not fall back on my back up plans, boo boo.
-crosses fingers-

Ok, apart from my worries of the deep, dark and evil A level results..
Life has been pretty good so far :)
Coral sec has been great..
My workload has lessened a lot..
And I really love what I am doing now.
Interacting with the students..listening to their problems and their lives.
Sometimes, their problems make mine seem so trivial..frivolous even.
Parents divorces, financial difficulties, boyfriend demanding that one that one from them..blah blah..
Its a totally different world.
I think I am gonna miss them loads.

And meeting up with BKBM and 3menplanet has been awesome.
I love you guys!!! <3
BIG BIG BIG kissy smuackeroos.
Hahahaha….

2006-01-19T20:29:00.000+08:00

Today is perhaps the worst day of my life in Coral Sec.
I'm revolted, absolutely.
Big booboo.
But thank goodness to the gang of sec 5 boys who settled it for me.
Max's protection really helped :)
Though Max had been MIA from school for a week already...his entourage did the job well.
Of cos, Ditzy Deedee and Jolly Julie made it all better too, muacks.

And, I am strong girl.

2006-01-10T01:23:00.000+08:00

Is this clearer my dearies? :) Lovelove.

2006-01-09T22:15:00.000+08:00

First day of work at CORAL SECONDARY SCHOOL today :)
9 January 2006.

Thus, after 40 plus days of waking up as and when my body clock dictates,
(or when one of the BKBM gals RUDELY gives me a wake up call)
I pried my eyes opened at 6 am this morning.
Slept for a mere pathetic 3 hours as we had to send my bro off in the wee hours of the night.

6 a.m.
Goodness gracious me.

It felt weird.
Seemed as though I was preparing to go to school..
But instead of the baby blue fire-proof uniform that I religiously put on for the past 2 years,
I dressed like an adult.
Mama Chen was the most excited.
Fluttered about here and there, fussing about my dressing and hair and shoes and bag.
And she was still not satisfied.
Kept complaining that I STILL looked like a little kid..
Hahahaha..I beg to differ.
Watching her, some would think it was my wedding or something. (Haha, i WISH lar!)
Yup...
And so, I tottered precariously out of the house by 6 30 am on high heels, in a bid to look taller than the students...
Embarking on a whole new adventure! =))

Reported on time with sore, aching legs.
(It was a looooooooooong walk from the MRT station)
My timetable was H O R R I B L E.
They really bully meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee -whines porky style-
hahaha...
Packed in 8 periods into my schedule...
Back to back, with only one measly break.
Very JIAN!
BUT that was not the factor that left me gazing in shock at the slip of paper in my hands.
This was: 3 out of the 4 classes assigned to me were upper sec, NORMAL TECHNICAL stream.
I almost fainted.

Hahaha...
And so I trudged to my first class in trepidation of what was gonna be in store for me.
The skies were dark and gloomy...
Rain was cascading down mercilessly...
Thunder was rumbling in the near distance...
At that moment, 2 words flashed across my mind.
"PATHETIC FALLACY"
(heh, Ms K would be so proud of me!)
Anyway, on a separate note, Coral Sec is humongous!
Think its like at least ONE km distance between the staff room and the classrooms, NO exaggeration here.
Felt like I went on a hike to Pulau Ubin by the end of the day.

Entered the class with the sternest facial expression that my chubby cheeks could muster up.
"Good morning class. Ms Choo is absent today, I would be taking you all for English."
SURPRISINGLY, they stood up and in all politeness, chimed in unison,
"Good morning Teacher."
Wow.
I was awed by my power, haha.
Hahaha, of course my happiness was short lived.
Really really a rowdy, noisy bunch.
After 5 mins, the realization that they would never be silenced no matter how many times I said "Class, keep quiet/ Class, lower your volume/ Class, you're getting far too noisy!" dawned upon me.
If you can't beat them, join them right?
And so I did.
Hahaha, think they were shocked to see this weird teacher joining in their conversations, laughing at their jokes and EVEN smiling though they were noisy.
But I couldn't care less.
SECOND surprise of the day: It worked!
They actually listened to me and got down to work!
And I could see them making an effort to work together to complete the story writing exercise that I assigned.
=))

However, the worst was yet to come.
The normal tech sec 4 classes were really a nightmare.
As many of them stayed back for a couple of years, they were the same age as me!
There were 3 boys who were NINETEEN lar!
Hahaha...
And so they started asking how old I am...blah blah.
I tried my best to mumble "20 plus"...BUT THEY DUN BELIEVE!
So irritating.
Dee dee, I thought you say I can look mature too!?! humph.
This cheeky Malay boy called Anwar even ran out of class after my nightmare period ended and asked me to catch a movie with him after school.
Madness.
Thinking back, the situation was actually quite funny as he looked so earnestly serious.
But I was too shocked at that moment to find amusement in it.
Was stammering like an idiot too, bah!

I was really bushed when I returned to the staffroom.
Feet was killing me, HUGE blisters!
(thanks AH, mama chen, pfffft.)
But nonetheless, despite of my fatigue, I was a happy girl.
Yes, the monetary aspect was definitely an attributing factor...
But I felt emotional gratification too.
To me, it was heartwarming whenever a student that I don't know greets me or smiles at me.
Hahaha, there was this gangster like ah beng with an entourage following him who suddenly stopped me along the way.

Him: "Hello teacher, you are new right?"
Me: "Yes."
(I was trying to muster up my stern expression once again. Thought he wanted to demand protection fees from me or something.)
Him: I see. My name is Max. You are?
(Sticks out his hand and beaks into a sudden smile)
Me: "I am Pauline. No no, I mean Ms Chen."
(I felt stupid.)
Him: "Ok, nice meeting you Ms Chen. If anyone bullies you, come find me ok? Take care!
Me: "You too!"
(And he saunters off.)

Hahaha, I am protected by Mr gang leader, wow!

And this sums up my exciting first day =))
Though they are naughty and rowdy and cheeky and full of nonsense, I kinda like my students.
There's nothing bad about them really beneath the facade.
I am a happy teacher.
Hope it stays this way!

Meeting the BKBM gals tmr, yay!! (:

2005-12-27T10:54:00.000+08:00

http://web.tickle.com/tests/

haha, yellow yellow, dirty fellow!
ok, no point!
same as little juju =))

merry xmas my dearests!
I feel like a ball now, been eating and eating non-stop this festive season.
haha, but nvm, eating makes me a happy ball! ;)
Anyway, hopefully the new year ahead would usher out all the bad fengshui and karma that has been plaguing our little circle of friends.
hmm...hope everything would work out fine lar.
And perhaps, everyone can be happy again!
Leaving you guys with a kiss!
HAHA.
-muacksssssssss!!

2005-12-21T10:06:00.000+08:00

You Have A Type B Personality

You're as laid back as they come...

Your baseline mood is calm and level headed

Creativity and philosophy tend to be your forte.

Like a natural sedative, you have a soothing effect on people.

Friends and family often turn to you first with their problems.

You have the personality to be a spiritual or psychological guru.

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

2005-12-18T14:14:00.000+08:00

First day of work went really well =)
I was placed in charge of pre-schoolers, and they are darn cute!
Really, they say the most ridiculous things, haha.
I love my job!
For 5 hours, I just sit at the pre schoolers' corner and mark their homework and classwork, play meaningful & enriching games with them and laugh at them PRIVATELY, heh.
Time passes super quickly in there.
The instructor Ms Yong is also a super nice lady!
Upon hearing that Ly is without a job, she tried her best to fit Ly in although the centre is very small...and TADA!!!
Ly is employed too! (:

Oh yes, thank you little juju and little deedee for the "first-day-at-work" present that you guys gave me..awwwwwwwwwwwww......
It was a prettyful little bouquet of SWEETS, yum!
Lovelove <3 Muackeroos.
-shy smile-

2005-12-17T22:18:00.000+08:00

At 10 15 pm on the 17th of December 2005, Saturday...............
Juliana Ong Yong Sung
finally admitted to me that she'll
MISS me!!!!!

hahahahahahahahahahahaaahaaahahahaah.

[EDIT: BY JULIE] (that silly goose forgot that she gave me her password wahahahahhahaa)
Fine, I did say that I'll miss her for the next couple of days.
BUT!
I added that she will NOT be the only person I'll miss cos I'll definitely miss the other BKBM girls like Dee and Ly.
So there PORKY CHEN PORK PORK!!!!

P.S: the act of deleting this post symbolises Porky's love for DAWEI/EHLO =)

2005-12-17T20:06:00.000+08:00

Make bold those that you have done!

Graduated High School.
Kissed someone. (Naughty little Iskander! ;) heh)
Smoked cigarettes.
Made out with someone of the opposite sex.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time without sleep.
Lied to someone.
Been dumped.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class. (ECONOMICS!!)
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral. (Unfortunately, yes.)
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon. (Madness, craziness, pure insanity, haha)
Had an eating disorder.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Cut yourself.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Had detention.
Skipped school. (That's what polyclinics are for, right 04A202? heh.)
Got in trouble for something you didn't do.
Stolen books from the library.
Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the "Harry Potter" movies.
Had an online diary.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yardsale.
And a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to seaworld.
Attempted suicide.
Voted for American/Australian/Pop Idol.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn't have. (I wouldn't call it "love" though. That word is too precious.)
Wondered about your sexuality.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM's/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse. (The abuse from BKBM MUST count right?)
Had a hamster.
Pet a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did "spirit day" at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A's.
Been on the Honor Roll.
Your parents sent you to a shrink.
Been handcuffed.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Had a party while your parents weren't home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.

Oh dear, this is pathetic.
This shows that I have a really colourless, dull, UNinteresting life! =(
NOT a good sign, at all.

But nvm, I'm in a happy mood today.
And by the end of next month, a person very very dear to me is gonna be extremely happy too!
I really really hope so. =)))
Shhhhhhhhhh...secrets! heh.
Life's looking good at the moment.
Family, friends and a meaningful job!
And x'mas is coming too...I'm contented (:

2005-12-16T11:07:00.000+08:00

FINALLY.
Finally, finally, finally....!
My old blog template is back =)))
No more disgustingly pink and tasteless blog template of EHLO/ Da wei who I was FORCED and TICKLED into "idolizing"!
For the benefit of the less ignorant, the previous blog entry and template was not done by me!
But by the evilest of the evilest BKBM gals.
ie, Lyanna Wong Pui Yi.
Juliana Ong Yong Sung.
AND Denise Lee Yanxiang!!!!
(If YOU really thought it was me, I am terribly, immensely DISAPPOINTED with you! -glares-)

haha, my blog was hacked into!
Cos I naively trusted the evil friends with my password..humph.
Haha, nvm, I shall pardon those CHILDISH little gals...
Little kids will always be little kids. ;)
I will never do such a thing OF COS, heh heh.

Have been going down to the hospital with little lyly and little juju to visit Andrew for a couple times in a row already..
The hospital is really a depressing place.
And it was saddenning to see Andrew in such pain and yet feel helpless about it cos we could do nothing to help, especially on the first day.
But he's getting better already! (: Get well soon!!
Still must report to me on the 22nd of Dec ah! ;)

Little juju is going to hongkong on Sunday!!
Boo.
Even though she ALWAYS bully/insult/slap/abuse/glare at ME, I will miss her!
hahahaha, it will seem mighty weird.
Like just something is missing like that.
Aiya, don't go lar you silly goose!
heh, or else come back sooooooooooooon! :)

Oh yar, and I have a job now!
I am employed! hohoho!
Starting work at KUMON later...
At least I will be working with kids, so I think I would be really happy =))

MY ADDICTION!!! ;)

2005-12-12T18:37:00.000+08:00

hello friends!!

today, i want to tell EVERYBODY how much i love 183 Club, 7 flowers, and the superb taiwanese show - Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa!!!

did you all watch it on channel U sometime ago?? FANTASTIC, wasn't it?? I KNOW!!

although Ming Dao is the star of the show, and my friends love him to bits, but they can have him for all i care!!
my favourite is the character DAWEI!!! thats him the picture and my layout!! CUTE RIGHT?? ;)

everytime i watch the show, i get very upset that stupid Ming Dao gets to play the lead role of Shan Junhao. Because my DAWEI deserves it more!! He only gets to play the poor little minor role of SJH's assistant!! What an insult right?

and you know what?? everytime i watch the show, i imagine my DAWEI to be in SJH's position instead... Telling ME: "I hate you, I really hate you... I hate you for always affecting my thoughts..." Aaaaahhhh!
I dream of him every single night... The way he caresses his chest is my favourite! You should all watch the 183 Club videos! My DAWEI is very very very sexy!

BTW, my DAWEI's english name is very sexy and cool too!!
Its......................................................

EHLO!!!!!!

nice right?? i can already imagine saying HELLO EHLO!! what a nice ring to the name!!
sigh, Ehlo and Porky 4eva... how WONDERFUL!!

i'm off to Ehlo dreamland now... Bye everyone!

2005-12-11T19:47:00.000+08:00

"In a relationship, it's fundamental to be friends with your partner first. Imagine you're on a road trip with your partner; on a journey, with just the two of you, which will take years. Think of all the time you'll spend in proximity to him - you'll want him to be the best friend you can ever have. Your relationship will be kept lively and vibrant, not be short flashes of excitement and intimacy, but rather by a mutual feeling of respect, admiration and friendship."

Another week gone.
Bye bye Lao mei who has flown to the land of cows and grass and sheep :)
Enjoy yourself, have fun, take care!!
Quite an uneventful and peaceful week, with lots of job applications to fill in!
Haha, spent alot of time with Mummy dearest too =))
She has been giving me lots of good advice and nuggets of wise words.
Even though I did not tell her anything at all...
She seems to know it. Intuitively?
Mothers are really the best.

The upcoming week appears to be filled with fun!
Tmr, me and little lyly would be heading down to all the schools around our vicinity to apply for a relief teaching position.
I had better start thinking of what to wear that would make me look OLDER, haha.
And then, we will be meeting up with little deedee and little juju for a movie!
It has been ages since I had gone for a movie thanks to the exams.
AND, it marks the first BKBM movie outing ever!!
Its gonna be a historical event ;)

Probably going to SGH with little lyly on tues to visit Andrew who gonna have a spinal op and then meeting up with some old friends.
Be brave Jiang shan!!!
You can do it, don't be scared! :)
Mummy's going off to Batam on wed and thurs to help Papa move house..
Leaving me all alone at home, boo.
But nvm, the little girls of BKBM would be coming over to accompany me, heh.
We're just gonna slack around, watching vcds..
Bullying porky is MOST possibly high up on their agenda too ;)
Oh yes, and we are planning to go groccery shopping before going to my place first.
Groccery as in RAW vegs and meat and stuff..
Cos we are independent girls who are planning to...........COOK!!!!!

AND fri is probably the most exciting!
Victor, the crazy brother of mine, is coming back from Edinburgh for a short visit!!
YAY!!
Ok, I shouldn't get too excited..
Its NOT like he's coming back to see ME!
humph.
I'm probably just a secondary factor to him..
hahahah!
His primary intention is of cos his girlfriend lar..fly back all the way to see her, heh.
Silly goose of a bro.
But its fine with me..Much as hate to admit it, I miss him. A little.
haha, and I miss my sis too!
The house is just uncannily quiet without those two noisy pople yakking around.
So, come back soon, chen siblings! :))

Ahhhh..happy and excited! <3

2005-12-07T13:15:00.000+08:00

The very much-anticipated JC prom came and gone in a blink of the eye.
A glitzy affair of glam and fun.
From alien hairstyles and curls to desperate DIY make up atempts to sardines squeezed in the car to people watching and gossiping to pictures galore to angry hunger pangs and sore feet to silver and starry balloons to sleepovers =))
A closure to the past 2 years.

I love you, my dearest friends. <3

Prom pics are up!
Courtesy of Julie's, Dee dee's as well as my camera.
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2116508019

2005-11-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

Yay!
Little india adventure with BURMA'S minority group, little ly ly and little ju ju tomorrow =))
sounds so fun, i can't wait!!
And then its off to Batam on Thurs morning for the three of us....
Wheeeeeeeeeeeee...

For some weird reason, the two crazy women are laughing like mad at me now online..
Aiyo, miscommunication what...
Please don't tell anybody, I beseech you.....
-pleading eyes-

2005-11-27T21:46:00.000+08:00

BKBM 158/ Beach 165 (:
hahahahaha!!

I still can't believe the exams are over.
It feels unreal.
Think the realization hasn't really set in yet.
Keep thinking that I'm doing something naughty when we are having our post-exams activities like TEO HENG or SJH-ing.
Speaking of which, SJH-ing has transcended boundaries!
It has even captured the hearts of new members, Ame and Lao mei!
This is NO good!
It means that I have MORE competitors.
Damn gross lar these girls..
I still remember that when I insisted on watching the show at Dee's house when it was still airing in Channel U, they all looked at me with SCORNFUL eyes filled with disbelief.
But now, the table have turned!
THEY ARE OBSSESSED!
Julie and Ly even go online to *CENSORED*!!!
And they even relegated ME ( The pioneer/founder of the show) to like DA WEI, the chest carresser!
My tragic life.

My post-exams life has been anything but bright and colourful, but it suits me fine =)
Rushed to Teo Heng after P4 and sang and sang and sang.
(Ogled at 1** Club and Seven ******* too, heh.) ;)
Met up with Mr PF's friends who were singing in the next room and we all ended up at Simpang.
Went to the playground near my house with him, but sadly, there were no stars haha.

Friday.
Woke up bright and early to cook porridge for the ban main aunties..
BUT it was a complete disaster.
haha, cooked the porridge too loooooooooong and it was a little (JUST a little) BURNT..
Met Mr PF at the airport after making him wait for about an hour, so sorry.
I had to salvage the porridge!
The aunties were kind though, said that it was still very delicious. =D
Went to Temasek Poly.
Quite cool lar the school.
Everywhere you turn, a good-looking/well dressed/immaculate make-up person appears.
Unbelieveable.
And the ice-cream parlour is so quaint.
It sure makes you feel like you are dining in some foreign country.
That was followed by SJH-watching at my place.
The VERY interested participants included BKBM as well as my dearest 3menplanet!
Understatement of the year: We were sooooo hooked! =))

Saturday.
Bras Basah with Ly, Dee and Julie.
I think our stamina is in really really bad shape since our last PE lesson was eons ago.
(Not that i'm complaining, haha.)
Chanced upon a 2nd hand book store that sold old books and magazines at dirt cheap prices.
Met Mr PF at parkway for dinner.
Haha, there's really NOTHING to look at in parkway.
We even had to resort to furniture/supermarket shopping while waiting for Andrew and Ly who went to watch a matinee.
Went for prayer meet for the first time in my 18 years of existence.
It was an eye opener.
Interesting topic, informative research, cosy environment and friendly people. (:

Sunday.
Woke up for morning mass.
Followed by lunch with Mr PF and Andrew as Ly went for brunch with her godparents and would only join us later on.
Played pool while waiting for her.
Think I learnt a lot of new techniques today!
You are a good teacher Mr PF :)
Went to East Coast Beach after that.
I had never been that unprepared for a beach outing ever before.
haha!
We didnt even have a groundsheet to sit on....
Had to sit on the grass and make friends with the little ants and play with the cute leaves.
Well, but at the very least, thanks to the boys' quick thinking, we had food and drinks, haha.
Sat there enjoying the sea breeze, mindless chatter, MUCH teasing and bantering, serious discussions, nonsensical games and even a scary encounter with an ah beng family. =))
(I'm proud of you for being able to control your temper)
Had dinner at Bedok..
And Andrew drove us all home.
A very very very VERY safe driver he is.
A drastic change from that reckless brother of mine.
Very good!
Oh yes, I was the witness to a very solemn pact.
Keep to it ok? ;)
Hmmm...we realised that the four of us were a very compatible combination.
After all, we're BEACH 165!
And we've many many outings lined up already like Marina Bay, Pulau Ubin, Haw Par Villa and Jurong..yay!
Fun fun fun day =))

okie, enough of blogging.
Gotta go study already...no more time...sigh.
OPPS! the exams are OVER!!! ;)
hahahahaha!
childish.

2005-11-23T20:48:00.000+08:00

Bold all the things that make you smile... =))

1. Falling in love.
2.Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8.Hearing your favourite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the birds outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer. (only in the winter)
11. Chocolate milkshake.
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach.
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. A huge sale at your favorite store.
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.
25. Making other people laugh.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss. ( Little Iskandar! heh heh ;) )
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Competing with your friend and beating your friend.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies.
37. Having your friends send you home-made cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise/sunset.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone who cares about you deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what.
46. Getting flowers for no apparent reasons at all.
47. Being treated for lunch.
49. When the phone rings.
50. Tickles.

"If you have made another person on this earth smile, your life has been worthwhile." Sr. Mary Christelle Macaluso.

So SMILE my dearies...
The world is not all that ugly (:
In any case, smiling seem to be the only emotion that I'm capable of..
Since my tear ducts have failed me badly.
I couldn't even cry during "Armaggedon".
Or even during that sad sad episode when SJH had to lave Tian Yu after their romantic candle-lit dinner on the roof-top.
Think I need an eye specialist..
haha..
BUT my tears still appear when I yawn ahh..
Something is wrong.
Hmmmm...maybe my theory that I can only cry for people that I love is correct.
Though it has been a long time since I last teared,
I remember that I never fail to cry whenever I quarrel with my sister.
When my parents are upset with me.
When my brother got involved in that horrible car accident.
When my grandpa was in the hospital.
Or even when lao-mei said those touching words to me on my bdae.
Haha..this is such a random, nonsensical blog entry.

Finally, tmr marks the long-awaited start to our freedom.
And what can be better than celebrating it at our DEAREST "Teo Heng Music Centre", crooning the 1** Club and 7 F*****S songs that had accompanied us all these while? ;)

lovelove.

2005-11-21T15:28:00.000+08:00

Thank you for the porky keychain.
Thank you for the good luck card.
Thank you for the pasta that you personally cooked.
Thank you for the post-card.
Thank you for the strawberry pocky.
Thank you for the mock "interview".
Thank you for the adorable puffer fish picture.
Thank you for the song.

Its all in the basket, by my bed. =))

Thank you for the past 3 weeks.
Thank you for all your smses.
Thank you for the night-to-morning phone conversations.
Thank you for always sending me home.
Thank you for your sweet words.
Thank you for putting me above all else..ie, the "wanton" noodles ;)
Thank you for worrying about me that day.
Thank you for the massage.
Thank you for making me happy, laugh and smile.
Thank you for your marriage proposal.
Thank you for always wanting to protect me.
Thank you for the circle you drew on my palm.
Thank you for loving me.

I really wanna love you too.....

I hope to thank you for the shooting star soon.
I hope to thank you for the rainbow soon.
I hope to thank you for the breakfast-in-bed soon.
I hope to thank you for my dream fantasy date soon.
I hope to thank you for the baby-blue ferris wheel wedding proposal soon.
I hope to thank you for the white cottage with wild flowers, by the sea soon.
I hope to thank you for the 4 adorable kids soon.
I hope to thank you for our wedding planner shop soon.

Thank you God for Mr Puffer Fish ;)

2005-11-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

hello julie!!
are you happy?

hello porks!
no i'm not happy cos i'm at your place and i'm supposed to be studying!!
and friends.
i think you guys should change your minds about being friends with porky chen cos she's PSYCHO.
she thinks that she deserves a place in staridol so much that she has resorted to scaring poor dee and i with her psycho act.
RUN friends. RUUUUUUUUUUUUUN!!!!!!!!

oh dear juie, have you gone bonkers officially??
cranium fart too much already ah? heh.
i had been nothing but demure and gentle towards dee and julie..
sigh, i really don't understand why they are SO MEAN to me.. :(
they hurt me deep deep.
i'm very sad.
haha, please lor julie, u just wrote in the post card that i'm an amazing friend!
liar liar, pants on fire!

see people, now she's displaying her i'm-so-good-at-acting stint on you all now!
dont believe a single word she says.
dee's blog can verify that (whenever she blogs about the fateful event that changed our whole entire life forever)
so tragic.

lies, all lies!
all out to defame me and make my fans not like me anymore!!!!
i'm fortune's fool :(
i shall listen in to julie's and zhi sheng's phone convo and tell you guys more lar\ter!
hot hot hot exclusive off the press!

CRAZZZY.

2005-11-01T20:08:00.000+08:00

You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

2005-10-17T00:27:00.000+08:00

My bdae celebrations (:

The Planning:
Suffered much threats and bullying from my bdae planners, Ame, Lao-mei, Julie, Dee, Lyanna & Liz and had to be extra nice to them in that two fateful weeks that led up to my bdae..
With my character, it was AGONY!
I was not allowed to tease them or insult them or not they would wave around that piece of paper with my bdae plans on it VICTORIOUSLY.
Endured their EVIL laughter, threats, smirks, knowing looks & secretive smsing...w/o complains, in meek silence.

The Day Before:
Me, Ame and Lao mei had a 3menplanet "da tuan yuan" at a brand-new haunt!
It was some international buffet..
With our favourite food like xiao long paus, curry mutton, seafood and more..
The service was excellent too..
Then Ame and Lao mei smeared some strawberry ice cream on a cup cake and presented it to me with a bdae song...Lovely.
A beautiful lunch with two of the most beautiful people in my life (:

The Night Before:

Received instructions from Julie Ong Yong Sung at 11 30 pm on 14 Oct' 05.
I was supposed to meet at bedok interchange at 1 20 pm sharp.
Wearing the rattiest clothes that I can find in my cupboard cos according to them, due to the activities they planned, the clothes I would be wearing would most probably be spoilt, ruined and dirty by the end of the day.
Must wear a halter bra and no other kind will suffice.
Bring "Spikey", my favourite pet corrector.
Sounded so intimidating..

Morning:
Woke up to a scrumptous breakfast prepared by Mummy dearest!
Had breakfast with my parents before showering and getting ready.
Dug my bro's cupboard for any random T-shirt that he seldom wears and found a black Tommy Hilfiger.
STOLE it, and wore it with a pair of ratty blue Puma sports shorts. Sigh.
My dressing was met with sniggers and smirks from my Mummy & Papa as they knew what was in store for me that day.
I mean, which poor girl had to wear RAGS on her 18th bdae...?!!?
What a tragic story..
(Julie had already discussed the bdae plans with my Mummy prior to this, on the day that she stayed over at my place.)

Stop ONE:
Bedok Interchange.
I nearly SCREAMED in horror when I saw the SIX cheeky gals & one ANDREW.
They were dressed to the NINES!
Clad in skirts, 3/4 pants, jeans, pretty colourful tops, nice accessories, dainty bags looking utterly divine, gorgeous and resplendent.
(Note: Andrew was NOT in the above-mentioned girly get up, not to worry.)
N poor me..poor poor poor me in frumpy wear.
On MY 18th b'dae...aiyo!
My "dearest" planetarians even had the cheek to tell me the day before at the buffet that they were going to dig out their oldest clothes to wear..Lao mei that cunning girl even SPECIFIED that she was going to wear her old old old MJC house tee!
BAH! Lies!
I felt like an ugly, dirty old maid!
With a dejected face and a broken spirit and faith in humanity, I gave out the presents that I stayed up till 4am the previous night just to complete.
The hugs & bdae wishes from them made me feel a little better though. A LITTLE.
I was mercilessly blindfolded with this bright red thing & walked through the interchange to get to the bus stop..It must have been such a sight.
Ame, the insensitive clod, happily told me that a bunch of cute guys were looking my way and tragically, I was in ridiculous wear.
Utter misery! Stop TWO:
After a torturous bus ride in darkness..With many unknown hands hitting & slapping me, we finally reach the destination.
According to them, I was in some wilderness place with a lots of lallang and mosquitoes.
And it was sweltering hot!
Haha, poor Lao mei & Ame had to take turns to fan and massage me..
This was to atone for the misdeeds towards me!
They said that we were waiting in some queue for the shuttle bus service to come and whisk us to our final destination.
Some one even pressed a ticket into my hands and told me not to lose it.
LIES, all lies!!!
When the blindfold came off, we were actually at KATONG SHOPPING CENTRE!
At our favourite food stall which sells yummylicious venison and noodles..
With an entire table of food greeting my eyes, haha.
And NOT on some Bukit Timah Hill or something that I was led to believe..
The ticket was actually a 4D slip with my birthdate on it, "1510".
That would really make a very good souvenier for the day's exploits, thank you.
At the end of the meal, poor Lao mei complained that her face felt really itchy and so she and Ame went to the toilet to dab some water on her face.
After waiting for few minutes, we received a call from Ame saying that Lao- mei's face had broken out in a rash and that her lips were swollen and so Ame was going to send her home first before meeting us at our next stop..
With the mood kinda dampened, at least mine was..I was unceremoniously blindfolded once again..And was left in the hands of the 4 other evil bdae planners!

Stop THREE:
It was yet another torturous bus ride in darkness.
This time WORSE cos the evil four kept gasping & pointing out at interesting discoveries along the way which I could NOT see!
Like the giant potato chips in my favourite "Chilli Salsa" flavour!
When we alighted from the bus, I instantly felt gusts of wind blowing in my face and I could even smell the salty sea breeze!
Aha! This time I was clever, I guessed that we were at the beach really SMUGLY..
BOY, how wrong I was, so so wrong!
When the blindfold was lifted up, I was standing right before a sign which read, "Singapore Management University"!!!
Gosh, we were at SMU!
I was in town in my RAGS, on MY 18th bdae!
Sad sad SAD life...
My nightmare was not over yet, in fact far from it!
Dee dee, the monster invigilator whipped out two pieces of INTIMIDATING looking papers from her bag and gave them to me.
The words on the paper were simple : " Porkerella's Birthday Test!"
I was supposed to do a test before I was allowed to go to the next stop.
Sounds easy right, NO WAY!
It was an ECONS test, and on my worst topics, MARKET FAILURE!
Evilness of the evilness!
So without much of a choice, I struggled miserably through the test..While the four of them happily cam-whored, oblivious to my agony!
There was even a 10m essay qn in there lar!
Anyway, I scored 40/50 for the test, an A, haha..must be because they were beginning to feel guilty about it already..and hence marked really leniently!
(Apparently this was the part of my bdae plans that my Mummy was so approving of.)
Stop FOUR:
The next stop was at Chjimes..
For a cam-whoring session..It was so beautiful..
We took pictures everywhere, even in e TOILET, posing every single possible style..Think we have exhausted all adjectives, expressions and themes in the entire dictionary already.
It was all in the name of good, sheer fun!
The pictures turned out gorgeous, not because of us silly models, but because it made us look like we were in Britain and not plain old Singapore!
I loved it!
I think it would be a perfect spot to take my wedding shots in future, haha.
By that point of time, clever me had already guessed that the next stop was going to be at the Esplanade roof top cos silly Lizzy accidentally blurted it out!
haha!
My first accurate guess..
So I was spared the agony of being blindfolded to the next stop..
BUT, the thing was that I had to walk through citylink and in MY RAGS!
Maybe at that point of time, being blindfolded may not have had been such a bad thing..At least I would be in a disguise and I would NOT know even if we met any familiar faces along the way.. Ignorance is bliss. Stop FIVE:
They blindfolded me outside Mrs Field's..
Meaning that I would have to go up TWO escalators without my sense of sight!
And to makes things worse, I was placed under the guidance of Julie Ong..haha!
It was a terrible experience!!
I was to step forward when she said "GO!" but somehow the timing was all screwed and poor me almost lost my life, on my 18th bdae.
She's one dangerous woman.
The second escalator was much better as it was AME, who popped out from nowhere, that led me up the escalator.
(Think she's just tryng to atone for her misdeeds on my bdae last year when she left me to the d0gs and ran away for her dear life while I was blindfolded, haha.. Dont think I dont know lor!)
When the blindfold was lifted up, a longan-looking trail on the rooftop garden greeted me!
Upon close inspection, they were FAKE longans, it was longans' counsins, buah duku!
haha, those cheaterbugs!
BUT, they are forgiven of cos, it was not possible for them to get real longans as it was not the season..
Apparently, they even called my Mummy up to ask her where to buy longans, haha!
I was supposed to go on the "longan" trail and pick up every single "longan"..Along the trail, messages to me from my dearest bdae planners were hidden.
It was really fun!
After picking up the last "longan", a prettyful flower, a muffin, a cup of iced canned longans greeted me!
That was not all..Suddenly, from behind the bushes, Amanda Lim Lao Mei popped out to surprise me!
The rashes thing was all just nothing but a SCAM!
Cheat my feelings ah...grr!
We had a small little picnic, with lots of snacks that Dee bought, on the patch of prickly grass..
Awwww... (: Such darlings.. Stop SIX:
We had dinner at the open air food place by the bay..
Had satay, carrot cake and fried rice.
And we held this "feel good" session in which we were to go round the table and say one true good thing that each of us appreciated about the person in particular..
So sweet..Left us, especially Julie, with a warm and fuzzy feeling..
That silly girl was in tears..but we all had no idea whether it was cos she was really happy or touched.
Somehow, just before it got to me, we had to vacate the table as it was getting pretty crowded and so they brought me to this secluded spot and stood in a circle.
There, they each said something they liked about me..
Gosh, it was so touching..
At one point, even me who never ever cried in public (with the exception of the time I cried in DHS after getting back my O levels results) just hugged my dearest Lao-mei and cried.
That Amanda the great's words were really touching..sigh..So sweet!
Julie and Lyanna were the last two people who said something..
And after Julie said her piece, she took out two VERY VERY VERY familiar looking clothing from her bag and passed them to me!
IT WAS MINE!!
hahahah!!
That girl stole it from my cupboard when I was showering the night that she stayed over at my place!!!!!
Then, after Lyanna the Grump said her piece, she said that they bought a bdae present for me from a pasar malam...
And indeed, she passed to me a cheapo looking plastic bag..
When I opened it, I got a shock of my life!
It was a pair of pink Birkie's.
I was so overwhelmed and touched that I just squatted there, in tears.
These 6 girls standing before me were really angels. Stop SEVEN:
They hustled me into the toilet and told me to change out of my rags into the clothes that they had brought for me..
It was a real transformation.
From my bro's black Hilfiger tee, my blue ratty Puma shorts and a pair of slippers into a pink top, a white skirt and the pink pretty Birkies.
As I was carrying a white bag, after changing, everything matched by fluke.
Later these darlings told me that the theme of my bdae celebrations was "FAIRYTALES"..
And that explained why my Econs test earlier was called "PORKERELLLA's Bdae Test", a pun on Cinderella.
hahah, from rags to riches huh..
We went to sit at the steps by the waters...And lazed around, talking and playing the Awards
game.
Everything just felt very comfortable, peaceful & serene.
Stop EIGHT:
I thought everything was over..BUT YET AGAIN, I was so so so very wrong!
After Liz and Dee dee went off, I was blindfolded AGAIN!!
In my dark world, I could hear irritating ang-mohs and Malay boys laughing and singing happy bdae song to me..
How embarrassing.
It was a really weird walk, it felt as though the ground was swaying!
And there were many many hands touching and helping along, hands which felt unfamiliar..Hands which I know dont belong to any one of the evil bdae planners..
There was this face plastered really close to mine..And when he spoke, it hit me!!
IT WAS CHONG YANG!
I took off my blindfold and realised that we were on a bum boat!
With Chong Yang, YII YIN and my beloved CHAW MUN! (:
And my dear bdae planners were standing on the dock, happily waving good bye to me..awww..
Later I found out that these naughty planners had actually made arrangements with Wee Meng and he was supposed to be the one in the bum boat..
Hahahaha, cos Ame has some really funny illusions about me and him..
Luckily he could not make it las min or else it would have been really weird, and my "dearest" bdae planners would not live past to see the sunrise of 16 Oct 05.
Nonetheless it was a magical ride..Simply breath-takingly beautiful.
(Minus the part when dear yy stood up and started posing ala Titanic, heh.)
Sadly, it only lasted half an hour. Stop NINE:
We made our way to TCC for some coffee & supper in easy banter.
Somehow..they caught on to the "laugh at Pauline for being short" and "who do u think is shorter, Pauline or _______" mood..bah!
Cos it was the first time that I went out with them wearing flats..So irritating!
haha, MY 18th bdae leh!
Yup, everything ended very very prettily...

FINAL note:
Chong yang sent me home at about 11 55..
I rushed home as I wanted to spend the las few minutes of my bdae with my parents..
But to my utmost horror, they were not in!
Ahahah!
They went out gallivanting too...
But it gave me some quiet moments of my own to ponder and reflect..
Wow, I'm finally 18.
That's quite a huge milestone in life, isn't it?
Well, at least I stepped into age 18 with some of the loveliest and most beautiful people in my life..
They really know how to put a smile on my face.
I have nothing else to say to them, and for a lack of a better word, "THANK YOU" Lao-mei, Ame, Julie, Dee, Lyanna, Liz, Chaw Mun, Yii yin and Chong Yang.
For making my 18th bdae so special and poignant. <3>

My fairytale.

2005-10-15T23:40:00.000+08:00

Thank you God for bestowing me with the most wonderful gang of friends any girl can ask for.
The kindest, sweetest, loveliest, most fun & beautiful people in the world.
I had the most memorable 18th bdae..
One so beautiful that i would never forget it. Ever.

To 3menplanet, Ame & Lao mei.
My dearest friends..my confidantes. Thank you so much..I know about all the hardwork and effort you two little imps put in to plan my bdae, and i'm really grateful. You two are such lovely people, making my bdae surprise such a magical one..despite of all the hiccups. Your MANUAL labour did not slip by me. Thank you for carrying that 3kg worth of fake longans, thank you for the longan trail, e prettyful flower & e muffin, thank you for massaging and fanning me. I wouldn't have changed a single part of my bdae. Also, thank you for last year, last year's celebration is still etched deeply in my mind. I love you guys to bits..With all my heart.

To Julie/ Evil fren/Bao-bao murderer.
They told me that you were the driving force behind my bdae surprise..assigning roles and taking care of every single nitty gritty detail. You're a fine friend, yong sung! Thank you for stealing my clothes from my cupboard, thank you 4 discussing the plans with my mummy, thank you for all the detailed planning, smsing and phone-calls, thank you for staying with me throughout my bdae right till the last part. Simply, thank you for making me happy on my 18th bdae. Julie yong, you're e best!

To Liz
It has been a short two years, but the experiences we went through together, as friends, as a class would never be forgotten. Thank you for celebrating my bdae with me today even though your mummy was not happy with your going out. I appreciate it, I really do. My bdae would have been different without you. Here's to more b'dae planning & celebrations!

To Denise my angel.
We have only been close in recent weeks but yet, it touched me deeply to see you putting in so much time in planning my bdae. Thank you for sacrificing 2 whole hours at BK planning & mapping out my bdae adventures at the expense of that thick stack of notes you had to cover, thank you for making me that exquisite bracelet, thank you for buying the picnic snacks, thank you for creating that very enriching Econs paper. U know what Denise Lee, you are what makes life so beautiful.

To Lyanna the softie beneath the GRUMP.
My dearest favouritest jian nu ren. You were such a lovely sweetie today! Not a single insult directed at me came out of your mouth, it was remarkable. Thank you for lugging my "pasar malam" birkie surprise in your bag all day long, thank you for spending my bdae with me righ till the last few moments, thank you for all the photoshoots by your trusty cam at chjimes. You are my most beloved jian nu ren n always will be. (well, erm, maybe not when you are in your chatterbox mood ya? heh.)

To Chaw Mun, Yii Yin & Chong Yang.
You guys simply rock. I had the most beautiful, enchanting and memorable bum boat ride with you guys around S'pore River, with a simply amazing view. Thank you for turning up at such a short notice. All that easy banter, teasing and gossip at TCC was fun! (MINUS, the "laugh at pauline for being short" part) It was great to lift up my blindfold to see you three sweeties right before my eyes..Also, thank you Chong Yang for sending me home.

To my bdae well-wishers:

Thank you Don, for remembering.
Thank you Chong Yang, for being the first.
Thank you Wee Meng, for specially waking up at 12 15.
Thank you Chaw Mun, for a very treasured friendship.
Thank you Lao-mei, for calling at 12 01 & being the first voice heard when I'm 18.
Thank you Benjamin, despite of your big boo-hoo.
Thank you Cikkk, for all the trouble you went to just to send me a greeting.
Thank you Jia jie, even though I'm such a lousy "older sis".
Thank you Ash, though you could not make it today.
Thank you Jie Ming, though you were reminded by Wee Meng.
Thank you Chrissy, for the very sweet bdae greeting.
Thank you Alvin, I'm sorry.
Thank you Ci ci Yen yen, for remembering though we have not met in 10 years.
Thank you Tiffy-jie, for your best wishes as well as for bringing my bro happiness.
Thank you Pei Qi, for the best memories in guides.
Thank you Chiew Siong, for the telephone call.
Thank you Stephanie, my junior, though it has been ages since I went back for guides.
Thank you Mamee & Puppy, for that beautiful MMS n the apt bdae wishes.
Thank you Ame, for wanting & succeeding to be the last.
Thank you Chee Ling, though you were a few mins late.
Thank you Julian, you are forgiven.

Thank you Sarah, for remembering my bdae but forgetting to wish me till today.

Thank you Zhong Yao, for ur BELATED greeting. U are so dead cos its a second offence!

To all the above-mentioned, thanks for bringing me much happiness & joy, in one way or another, on my 18th bdae, I love you!

2005-10-09T09:24:00.000+08:00

hello.
due to the lack of time, part 3 n part 4 will have to wait..haha.
the past week just went by like that.
with all of us feeling restless, nervous and SCARED as we awaited the return of our results.
bah!
if its already that bad for prelims, i think i would really have to "handglide without hands" while awaiting the A level results.
i don't want much.
just the bare minimal to secure me a place in the uni will suffice..
like "ABD"?
that would be marvellous.
though based on my prelim results i don't know HOW in the world i can get D for econs. haha!
really really pathetic.
except for GP & hist, my results were atrocious man!
n why in the world do i need an A1 in GP for?!?!
i dont even want to study law.
haha..
ok, nvm, i still have time lar huh? -self-consolation-
5 more weeks, 30 plus more days can do wonders!
BKBM, onward!

i cant wait to shop, with FREEDOM and an ease of mind.
i need a new phone..(only julie, ly n dee knows the real state of my phone beneath that facade! heh.)
bottoms...3/4 pants and skirts.
bags..
N shoes!
may 25th of Nov come galloping faster!
BUT may 11th Nov crawl here..
haha, thats impossible i know.

hmm..under the leadership of ONG YONG SUNG, my bdae plans seem very very intimidating.
even my mummy is roped in!
from what i gather, from those little clues i gather...
it seems very streneous and tiring!! :(
planetarians ame and lao mei, please intercede and fight against julie for me!!
(though she is REALLY a nice, sweet, gentle and KIND gal, really ;) )

going to the airport soon..
and then meeting up with Tiffy jie jie for dinner..YUM!

2005-09-28T20:11:00.000+08:00

PART II

Orchard Spreeeee!! :)
Lizzie, Ash the pregnant woman impersonater, Julie the intellectual pretender n me had a total tai-tai day @ Orchard..
it wld b all perfect wif jus a little mahjong man!
Started out wif good old crystal jade..
xiao long paus, hot n spicy tofu & la mian..wow..
i tink i wanna marry a xiao long pau maker.
serious.
i can just see myself living on xiao long paus 3 meals a day, 24/7.
i wld be sooooo happy! :)

we had VIP treatment at crystal jade lar!
it was uncanny..!!
they rushed to served us, no exaggeration here boy!
our cups were filled up jus after a teeny sip of water..
e dishes on our table were arranged, rearranged n arranged once more..
N our empty plates were cleared in a blink of e eye.
so weird.
a total 360 deg change from the treatment we received on previous occasion!!

went to far east..
met half e world there.
as usual, shopping was great therepy!
me n liz went crazy lar..
tink i bought at least one item from almost every single shop we stepped into.
blew 200 bucks away :(
N in e whole weekend, i tink i squandered almost 300 bucks...
boohoohoo.

NINE freakin tops from far east, zara, topshop n an ulu shop at KSC! ( i was out of my mind!)
One sash.
One pair of wedge. ( well, e uncle said that i looked like a korean star! haha, i HAD to buy somethg! ;) )
3/4 pants.

had yami yogurt!
ash was damn cute lar..
cos the dress she was wearing was pretty loose..
so she tried to disguise herself as a pregnent woman, n she really looked like one!
damn convincing.
i wld not be surprised if someone offered her a seat on e MRT.

Alright, too lazy to continue writing..
Time for pictures! :)

Met amanda e goon, xiao zhi n wanzhen..
we were n e same train on route to orchard!!
by coincidence!
btw, wanzhen's figure is reallie vava-voom lar!
as usual, life's unfair. heh.

@ cystal jade wif the pregnant woman imposter!
i would not mind being pregnant if i looked half as good as her lar!
haha, tink it must haf been ash's maternal presence that allowed us to receive VIP treatment.

The ATTACHED meets the BACHOLERETTES!
big reunion, muacks!
all of us were wif separate cliches in orchard, but we still met!

bdae gal!
happie sweet 18th yucksssssssssss!
love ya always nurse.
N ur hair looks fine to me, dun worry! :)

e moronic sha dan n her "girls".
opps! ;)

thx to my new shoes, my feet was super blistered n painful..
had to exchanged shoes wif the "surprisingly" kind julie..
BUT, as a result, all of them were towering over me lar!
even ashley yeoooooooooo!
cheater bugs! all on high heels!!
haha, so contrary to wad the pic below may ATTEMPT to illustrate,
i ain't that short!
look like a sheepish little gal in that pic :(

e sole survivors of the shopping spree!
ONE by one, our dearest friends could not withstand the rigours of
shopping n were eliminated..
leaving the both of us to BATTLE it out 4 e "shopping queen" title!
off to zara, den to topshop..
n even almost forgetting to buy julie's bdae pres in e process!
n e results ---- it was a DRAW!
by then, we could not even stand properly already.
N our feet were pretty mangled thx to our new shoes.

FUNNNNN <3

2005-09-26T17:06:00.000+08:00

hello!!
the following entries shall be on after-prelim activities!!
N they are divided into 4 parts.
PART 1: Teo heng karaoke session!!
PART 2: Orchard shopping spree
PART 3: Julie's bdae surprise ;)
PART 4: "Sleep"-over.

every day was a fun day..
BUT good things must come to an end...
so we must buck up n start studying again ok my friends?
we can do it, together :)

PART I
upon hearing mr willy tong's voice, signalling the end of the paper,
which totally sounded like music to the ears of us deprived students, we literally RACED out of sch..
n hopped on to a cab that brought us to our beloved Teo Heng..

was still quite early so gluttony julie e evil, liz & me went to eat first..
YUMMY venison & noodles nv tasted better :)

n after that we were soooooo DESPERATE that we went to shop
at KATONG SHOPPING CENTRE!
ahhh...!
shows how shopppin deprived we were huh?
n e worst thg is, we managed to buy stuff!!!!
aiyo!!
but e shoes were reallie pretty! heh.

N den it was off to Teo heng!!
we sang & sang & sang to our hearts' content!
it was sooooooo fun!
I swear singing can cure absolutely anything n everything in e world!
its would be the most effective cold turkey 4 smokers man.
Just that, it wld be a new addiction.

Me & e evil one. Dun belittle this pic k! we took ages to pose
n pretend that we are on CORDIAL terms wif each other!

This is the jian nu ren..But she's still my dearest most beloved
jian nu ren ever! though i know she's only USING me to get her levi's,
i still love her nontheless! :)

My angel!!
well, a picture paints a thousand words.
what can i say, that gal is absolutely besotted wif me huh? ;)

Pretending to be cold, as though we are in some far-away country during
wintry times. sigh, DEPRIVED.

Trying our best to mimic Ong YONG SUNG's "soooh sweeeed"!
its legendary i tell you.

Char siew pau/ xiao long pau face!!
sigh, but how come only I succeeded in looking like a PAU?!
life's unfair.

The lovely ladies.

It was especially touching n poignant when it came to"that's what friends are for". awww... "SOH SWEED!" you guys bring a whole new meaning to e word friendship! hang-in-hand, we'll combat the next gruelling six weeks that lies ahead!

smuackeroos!<3

2005-09-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

the most disgusting, replusive and eeeky PRELIMS are finally over!!
but what i am facing is a myriad of emotions.

HAPPY.
because the prelims are over. (duh!)

SCARED.
this means that e dreaded A's are one step closer.

DISAPPOINTED.
as i think i screwed up most of my papers :(

EXCITED.
No more mugging. at least NOT for the weekend.

EXTREMELY GRATEFUL.
for the bunch of great friends, julie the batam girl, dee the angel, liz the LONG-hair guys hater, ly the jian nu ren (heh heh!) and ash the french tourist wannabe!
smuackeroos to these lovely ladies.

i'll always rmbr the time we spent together at airport T1 bk...
fantasizing about about batam n hong kong..
praying that the FALL of napoleon wont come out..
ordering salt-less fries n getting weird stares from the counter-girl..
making friends with the ban-mian aunties..
going up to e departure hall n pretending that we HAVE a flight to catch..
catchin sneak peeks at dee n her boy-boy.. (ok, fine, that only applies to me! heh)
laughin at totally random and stupid stuff that makes no sense..
spouting BRILLIANT chinese!!!
my dearest BKBM gals..pOrky chen loves each and every one of u.. (yes, u too, lyanna wong!)

our last dinner at the airport T1 on Tues marked the finale to prelims mugging..
n somehow, it was just so magical n perfect..
just sitting around that weirdly homely table, slurping the most delicious comfort food..
n to quel the semi-depressed state that we were in thanks to SEA hist, we had a feel good session...
we went round e table paying our heartfelt compliments to each other...
its was "SOH SWEED!!"
my dearest friends, thank you. you guys reallie cheered me up very very much!
this is wad they said:

Liz: " i think you are very hardworking and I'm sure your hardwork will pay off."
Ly: " Even right from last year, when i first knew you, i already thought you were very sweet. Among the pigs, u were the most approachable."
Dee: " u are a very lovely girl. if i were a guy, i'll will sure fall for u."
JULIE ONG YONG SUNG: " YOU ARE VERY KIND. -sweet smile- (she wins the best faker prize, hands down.)

i love BKBM! <3

2005-09-10T14:41:00.000+08:00

Seven things that scare me
1. Not having my family around me.
2. Parting with 3menplanet & e ATTACHED.
3. If anyone of my grandparents succumb to death.
4. Not being able to enter the university.
5. Losing everything that I have.
6. Losing my diary.
7. Losing my inner happiness.

Seven things I like the most
1. Family, 3MP and the ATTACHED!
2. Star-gazing.
3. Chocolates & gummy bears.
4. Ferris wheels!
5. Talking, & talking &amp;amp;amp; talking ;)
6. Longans.
7. Project Superstar. Haha..

Seven important things in my room
1. My photo albums.
2. My piglet pillow.
3. My precious things box.
4. My computer & internet.
5. My alarm clock.
6. My motivational A level study plan!!
7. Hi-fi.

Seven random facts about me
1. My first kiss was given to an Indian boy named Iskandar in kindergarten..heh heh.
2.My mummy constantly nags at me to find a boyfriend IMMEDIATELY!
3. I wanna marry an ugly man.
4. Hostel days in Sec 4 were my most memorable times spent in DHS.
5. I believe in fairytale endings.
6. I believe in love at first sight.
7. I can finish half a kg of longans all by myself in one sitting.

Seven things I plan to do before I die
1. I would love to get married and have kids.
2. I wanna plan my own funeral.
3. I wanna plan the most spectacular wedding in the world.
4. Write my will.
5. Not sleep. I dun wanna waste the little time that I have left on sleep.
6. Join Project Superstar! heh..
7. Live in a white house, surrounded by wild flowers, by the beach.

Seven things I can do
1.Irritate the shit out of my planetarians. ;)
2. Plan.
3. Be very rational & logical.
4. Be a love counselor.
5. Make sushi!
6. Finish a 12 episode Korean serial in one sitting.
7. Attract psychos.

Seven things I can't do
1. Cry even when I am very very upset.
2. Eat raw sashimi & wasabi.
3. Draw an Un-evil looking mickey mouse.
4. I cant stand wishy washy people who wallow in self-pity. Pathetic.
5. I cant bowl. I have an uncanny affiliation with the gutter.
6. Sing e lyrics to "Sexy Naughty Bitchy Me!"
7. Lose the baby fats on my cheeks…bah!

Seven things I say the most
1. Irritating!
2. Amelia Ng! Yesterday got study not?!?
3. Mum, 5 mins more pls! (when she tries to wake me up in the morning)
4. Hai..lao mei ahhh.. ( To Amanda the goon)
5. Are u serious?
6. Oh my gosh..!
7. That guy is cute.

Seven celebs that I admire
1. Derrick Ho Wei Jian ;)
2. Adam Sandler.
3. Spice Girls!! Haha..
4. Fiona Xie.
5. Tay Ping Hui e hunk.
6. Takuya Kimura!!
7. Lin Jun Jie.

2005-09-05T19:55:00.000+08:00

Thats me & Amanda the goon.

She's happy, I' m happy too.

She irritates e shit out of me, I irritate e shit out of her too.

She knows me well, I know her well too.

She likes xiao long paos, I like xiao long paos too.

She loves me, I love her too.

Thats me & Amanda the goon.

Just being happy (:

2005-09-04T22:41:00.000+08:00

On the 3th of September 2005, my family had a rude shock.

We were awakened at 4 55 am by the incessant ringing of the phone.
It was my brother.
He had gone clubbing with his girlfriend and friends at a UK-bound event and went for supper before heading home.
On the highway at ECP, he was about to turn right towards Siglap Road when an Indian newspaper man with loads of newspaper balancing on the motocycle came from the opposite direction and knocked onto the leftside of the car.
The poor Indian man fell and injured his lower arms.

It was 4.45 am. My brother called for the ambulance and the police. Then he called home.
He said, "Mum, I had an accident. I knocked someone down. Can you please come? I am very scared..."

In fear, deep fear that I had never experienced before, we rushed to the site of the accident.
I was trying hard not to cry.
Especially when I saw my brother trembling and shivering as he hugged my Mum, telling her that he was very scared.
At that instant, he looked young again, like a lost little child, seeking comfort in his mother's arms.
I felt so helpless.
I could do nothing to help his distress and fear..
N his hands felt cold and clammy in mine.

Thank goodness, he did not kill a man.

The car was mangled.
The motocycle was beyong repairs.
And there was blood on my brother's jeans.

After the police and ambulance left the scene, we rushed down to the hospital to know more about the Indian man's condition.
He was old, maybe about 60+.
He was lying pitifully on the bed in the emergency ward, with alot of blood on his clothes and only my brother was allowed to go in and see him.
Both his lower arms were bandaged, fully bandaged to the elbow with many big metal holders sticking out to put his bones in place.
My brother apologized to him.
Thankfully, the old man who was still conscious at that point of time did not blame or scold my brother, and forgave him.

Outside the ward however, when my bro came out of the ward, he was subjected to a torrent of angry words from the old man's daughter-in-law.
All he could do was bent down his head and apologise.
My heart went out to him.
His guilt must have been immense....
It was such a humbling experience for him.

And there's the police charge against my brother that has yet been settled.
If he is fined more than $1000, his scholarship would be revoked by SAF and his entire career would go down the drain.
God forbid, but if the old man dies, he would be charged with dangerous driving and might be sentenced to jail...
However, at least, he was not drinking or speeding.

This had been a really terrible experience.
I had been trying my best to be strong, to suppress this fear inside me and to act as though everything is normal.
Because I have to be there for my brother.
But I'm really afraid.
I am not even supposed to tell my sister about all that had happened because my parents fear that it would affect her and keep her in undue worry.
Furthermore, there's nothing she can do to help since she's so far away.
So, I had to pretend to be upbeat and cheery when she called home in the morning.

Yes, my brother should have been more careful but i know he is very very sorry and that makes me really upset to see him so guilt stricken & traumatised.
No matter what happens, he is still the brother that I admire and respect.

Thank you God, my brother is fine and unscathed.
Please bless my family with the strength to tide over this crisis.
Please bless the Indian man so that he can recover quickly and get back to his life soon.
Please bless my brother with the courage to face up to the consequences of his actions bravely.
Thank you God.

2005-08-21T20:55:00.000+08:00

hello my dearest blog.
today you are in for a treat!
e exploits of amanda the GOON will all be revealed here in an exclusive TELL ALL session! ;)
however, i shall not be held accountable for the myraid of emotions that you would experience in the process of reading this entry.

NOTE: it can BE rather disturbing..haha.

well, me and julie have concluded that lao mei was indeed possessed yesterday..
or PERHAPS, this is in actual fact her REAL self! -shudders-
i sincerely hope NOT!

it all started out as a seemingly, fine and normal day..
the world in general, was still at peace.
however, the skies looked a little threatening and dark..
guess they were trying to WARN us that something ominous and foreboding that would radically alter our lives forever would happen soon.
but clueless us did not heed that pathetic fallacy.

setting:
we were on bus no. 358 heading over to whitesands' as there is absolutely NO food at all in the entire elias mall.

Me and lao mei were discussing the possibility of us joining CAMPUS SUPERSTAR which would be holding auditions next month.
(yea yea, go on, my detractors, ie, amelia ng rui ting, who believes that i would be the highlight of the BLOOPERS segment that would greatly help garner an all-time record high viewership. ha! i can practically hear your meano laughter already!)

ok, as i was saying..
all seemed fine and dandy when suddenly
ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE!
thunder roared!
lightning struck!
the cats outside started screeching shrilly in despair!
and the little ants in e field scrambled for a hiding place!!

that seemingly cute and innocent gal seated beside me, who in our opinions, WAS a humble and modest gal that was relatively shy about her singing abilities left us speechless.

amanda lim li ying/ amei/ lao mei/ siobhan/ lovely/ xiao ben/ pig pig suddenly BLURTED out:
"I will surely get in one lor! I mean, I have all the superstar qualities what!!"

we were flabbergasted. simply astounded by the sheer audacity of her words.
BUT thats not all.
we were still not spared! She continued with a super duper unbelieveably SMUG look on her face...

we were speechless.
all we could do was to muster up all the little energy and strength left in our body after that shock to give her this look:

she was indeed possessed.

(note: Contrary to popular belief, the contents of the above account had not been doctored or exaggerated in any sense AT ALL. if in doubt, feel free to ask the frail old man seated opposite us on that fateful bus no. 358 on the 20th of August 2oo5, who was obviously eavesdropping on our conversation. however, the last i heard, he is still in the hospital recovering from his shock.)

anyway, we had the MOST amazing saturday of our lives!
guess what?!??!
we spent a total of 6 hours in whitesands' mac!
can u imagine the amount of fun tat we had?!?
ha! i bet you guys are utterly jealous of us now!
we had the luxury and priviledge of doing econs..
and on top of it, we had an incredible tuition session to with the hunk of the century!
he's our man.

*in case you did NOT manage to catch on, the above paragraph is dripping with sarcasm.

Nontheless, simon was really nice lar..
bought us drinks and nuggets.
BUT i had the most unfortunate incident.
eeks!
it gives me the creeps and shudders just at the mere thought of it.
simon gals, u gals know what i am talking about right? sighhh...

after tuition, lao mei still refused to call it quits!
as a finale performance, she managed to disgust us once again.
the conversation went like this:

a very innocent julie:
"eh, can you imagine what it would be like if you had to compete with pOrky in the finals of the competition?"

amanda the GOON:
"den if like that, I sure win already wad!"
-her signature SMUG look-

by then, we were either too tired or simply too immune already to react.
she's the best.
haha..if only the legendary ANA sampan-man EDWIN has the priviledge of reading this entry.

his life would be changed forever...

(on a completely separate note, our dearest evil friend, ONG YONG SUNG has soooo generously promised that if we manage to get into campus superstar, she would vote a grand total of.........
-drums rolls-
FOUR votes for us. whoopeedidooo.)

that's what friends are for.. haha.

last night was tiffany's MEET THE PARENTS session!
so exciting!
they picked an exhausted poor little me up after tuition and we went for a seafood dinner.
well, i really must applaud tiffany for her bravery because
my family is not very normal you see.

my dad is a little disillusioned, my mum is jus a tad silly and blur...
and my bro has a hidden tendency to scare his poor sister at 2 am in the morning by standing at her room window while pretending to be a ghost.
beat that.

but anyway, all went very well!!!
my parents and I simply adore her to bits!
(well, i must admit its partly due to the fact that she brought over a truffle and a brownie cheesecake that she personally baked..yumm!)
hmm..according to the extremely biased account by my brother,
she thinks my family is soooooo warm and friedly towards her and that my parents are the most lovey dovey couple that she has ever met..haha.

N i like her too!
because she's on my side and together we can unite and bully little vicky chen kang hao ;)
ok, got to go!
tiffany jie jie is here for dinner.
mummy is so excited and happy to have her over again for dinner tonight that she started preparing for dinner since 3!
silly mummy..even went to buy abalone!
byeeeeee!

2005-08-17T09:17:00.000+08:00

hi lao mei.
hello porks, where is ame? and more importantly, where is the presentation?
im starving, we're pathetic eh?
ame shld seriously consider throwin away her pathetic com. its a bane to our lives.
yesyes i agree, i hate it even more than parsley or beansprouts, or EDWIN!!!!
oh my dear readers, if u have been an avid fan of my blog, u wld certainy haf a VIVID image of our dearest legendary EDWIN who has touched our lives with "fond" memories.
yes the ana sampan and fervent 'see you later at lecture'. its hilarious.

2005-08-07T19:33:00.000+08:00

2005-08-07T19:18:00.000+08:00

bye bye my dear sister... :(
6 mths w/o u..sounds unbearable man!!
coupled wif the fact dat kor kor is leavin on 12/9..
i m gonna b so freakin lonely.

after sendin my sis off @ e airport..
i accompanied my bro to buy flowers!!
heh heh..
dat silly boy is gonna asked dis gal called Tiffany to b his gf!
feel so excited 4 him..
she sounds liks a wonderful gal.
M so glad dat he has finally moved off n left behind all
e hurt frm his previous r/s.

i guess dat's life huh?
was readin e past entries of my personal diaries..
dated in sec 3.
i was such an immatured, ignorant fool.
haha..
it sounds so dumb man..all e guys i liked b4 r WEIRD!
i m glad i haf moved on..
well, e onli way for u 4get over a guy, is to like another.
how true.
how nice if there's a shop 4 us to buy guys to like? :)

2005-07-25T20:27:00.000+08:00

Its HEALTHY to be SINGLE!!!!!
"Rejoice!!"

1. You are slimmer
A Cornell Universty study found tt singles gained LESS weight over ten years then attached couples did cos havin a companion for meals can cause you to eat MORE!! Singles are also more motivated 2 watch their weight then attached.

2. You sleep & think better
According to a survey, 60 % of singles Zzzzz MORE, @ least 7 hrs a night, which is essential 4 restorin ur body and mind. You also get quality sleep cos you don't have someone disrupting your sleep wif his snores or his incessant sms.

3. Yor are happier
When u retain control --- over the remote, the vacation destination, where u eat and what u wanna do. That's esssential since a lack of control can lead to anxiety, frustration and depression!

4. You are healthier
Singles r better @ fosterin female friendships but once u r attached, ur focus tend to shift to the bf. Accordin to a study, close female friendships can benefit ur health by keepin blood pressure frm rising n easing stress.

**** DISCLAIMER:
This article is not written by me so dun simply dismiss it as a case of SOUR GRAPES!!! heh..bringin cheer to all e singles out there! :)

"What was e pain he needed 2 kill if not e ultimate pain of feelin no pain" Thom Gunn.

2005-07-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

等待我随时随地在等待做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问这是爱我猜你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败从天堂掉落到深渊多无奈
我愿意改变 (what can I do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me chance)
我无法只是普通朋友感情已那么深叫我怎么能收手但你说
I only want to be your friend 做个朋友我猜你心中只是
just a friend 不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
So I 我不能只是 be your friend I just can't beyour friend no,no,no,
我不能只是做你的朋友不能只是做普通朋友

2005-07-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

i woke today & it all became clear to mi.
wad i wan n wad i can haf wld nv b able to coincide.
so, let it go.
dis way, i wld b a happier person.
haha, tink dis wld not make sense to anyone except mayb wm.
anyway, i c e bigger picture now.
though it came like a slap in my face.

on a brighter note,
dis means i wld haf more energy to study for e prelims.
kill mi 4 announcin it to u guys but i muz do e evil deed!
prelims is in TWO MONTHS time.
it is startin in early september.
no more time to waste!!
cos i tink i m soooo gonna screw my mid yrs.
@ least e tot dat i haf woken up n realised how little time i haf left
wld make mi feel jus a teeny bit better :)

haha, sch is startin tmr.
though for most colleges, tues is a holiday!!
eeks.
which means, e reality of mid yr exams results
wld b sinkin in real soon!!

2005-06-04T21:46:00.000+08:00

I'd rather chase your shadow all my life
than be afraid of my own
I'd rather be with you
I'd rather not know where I'll be
than be alone and convinced that I know

today was a simply FUNNNNNN day! :)
went to sch early in e morn wif mei mei 4 lit lect..
sumhow or rather, e whole gang, liz, Julie, mama
n mei mei, ended up @ good old mcdonalds havin
breakfast..haha..
naughty man..
but it was a highly essential outin 4 mi n lao mei.
Thru dat tok, we learnt abt soooo much..erm..life issues?
BUT, it left mi perfectly revolted.
Wad is e world comin to???!
Dun they even love themselves anymore??
Yuppp..but nevertheless it was fun lar!!
More girly tok pls! ;)

After dat, mi n lao mei went off 4 our singin marathon!!!!!
6 hrs straight of non-stop HITS!
Haha, wif wee meng at TEO HENG singin center~!
N I wanna complain man!!!!
Dat stupid evil wm cancelled my -ting hai- and -wu tiao jian wei ni-
soooo mani times..
after I waited so darn looong 4 it to appear!
i wanna complain, wanna complain!!!
was prepared to murder him by e 4th time man..
Tai guo fen le..
Nv gif mi face ah!!!
Heh, but e singing EXCURSION (as wm puts it) was reallie
entertainin..good way to vent.
Though it was a little weird, jus e 3 of us stuck in dat
Little rm..haha.
Oh..n dat silly goose wm din even realized dat his
Dear stuffed pig was missing..
Gosh, dat look on his face when he realized was absolutely
Classic man!!
N most tragically, he was introduced to e legendary
PASTA PINKO POP FEN…
Haiiiiii..his life wld nv b e same again ;)

After seranadin & mesmerizing them wif e LOOOOONG
Waited -ting hai- finale, we took a cab down to TM
For MAGADASCAR!
Somebody was so kan cheong lar..din wanna let mr julian wait..
Hahahah..
E movie was nubbad lar…
Characters were v cute, esp e penguins..
But e plot was onli suitable 4 e kids in e theatre..like lim li ying!
Ooooooh! n e sweater dat wm lent mi smells damn gd.
Tink dat was e onli thg dat kept mi awake..haha.

Went to simpang bedok 4 prata after e movie..
N we simply went bonkers already!
Ahahaha! E escalator game was HILARIOUS!!
Poor lao mei!!
(hu somehow or rather decided dat she was our NIANGGG!)
SHE WAS CHEATED UP N DOWN N UP
E escalator by us..heh..such a poo poo silly gal!!
N suddenly again, we were supposed to b poor
Sua ku kids hu bv eat prata b4..
N dat we were sooooooo poor dat
Nianggg had to wash dishes after to meal to pay 4 it.
Haha, e silliness of it man.
Took e loooong walk to lao mei’s hse playgrd after dat..
E walk was full of hazards man!!!
We all took turns to either trip or stumble..
N were faced wif not v friendly dogs hu din reallie
Noe how to appreciate our beautiful rendition
Of -ning xia-. Hahaha!
Played e see saw n 4 sum reason..
All of us jus stood at e pavement n did all sorts of nonsense
Thgs 4 almost HALF an hr lar!!!
Tink we were drunks!

Left lao mei to go hm while mi n wm walked to e mrt station..
N we were almost attacked by a HUMOGOUS
GIGANTIC ENORMOUS lizard, half our heights!
Gosh, it looked like a baby dinosaur
Frm Jurassic park lar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But..heh..to my utter embarrassment…
It turned out to b a....hmm....erm....tree..stump....oppps.. ;)
Went hm superrrr tired..
But still, I was dragged out against my freewill by
E most hyper bro in e whole world 4 sum tau huay frm
Rochor road.

But well, it waas a fun fun day!
Ohhhhhhh!!!
I forgot to dramatically declare dat he
Is e cap of e bball team..hahaha..
Though its none of my business at all..heh.
Totally drove them nuts wif it today.
Okok, dats abt it..
Totally looking forward to e wk end…
N e rest of e wk..
Where I wld meetin up wif ppl like cm, yy and zy!!!
N ca n gang 4 another singin session!!
Hahaha..Life seems gd :)

2005-05-30T21:39:00.000+08:00

damn. wad is dat weird feelin i m feelin inside?
i dun believe dis. & i wont acknowledge it.
friends. FRIENDS. only. Dats all..
Y did u haf to go change everything?

(dun worrie dear old lao mei, its fine. Lovelove.)

2005-05-29T15:01:00.000+08:00

A long time ago, we used to be friends
But I haven't thought of you lately at all
If ever again, a greeting I send to you,
Short and sweet to the soul is all I intend.

ahhhhhhhh...it had been a GOOD weekend.
finally, i haf achieved e balance of work and play :)
heh...
woke up at 2 on fri!!! gosh..can u believe dat!!!
sorrie ju! din c ur sms until den..sorrie sorrie!!!
studied my econs until abt 5 plus..
n den went swimmin! felt so good.
ATTEMPTED to play golf after dat but failed terribly! haha.
played until quite lateeee...was super hilarious.
ended up at e beach..

went home at abt 9 plus and studied again..
hahaha..tink i m gettin into e hang of studyin alreadi..
c'mon, it aint dat bad!!
(sound like sum1 DESPERATELY tryin 2 convince herself huh)
picked my sis up at 1 am and went 4 supper..yummm!

studied e whole of sat..
wif ultra long breaks of cos!! ;)
okie, at least i m finally back on schedule!
yea..hope it stays dat way..!
there's GP and Lit P8 mid yrs tmr..boo.

2005-05-27T03:00:00.000+08:00

i m tired, but i cant slp..dats y i m bloggin at dis unearthly hr.
physically dead, mentally awake.
Zzzzzzz monster, where r u when i WANT u?!

jus came back frm choir concert...was nubbad :)
well done sammie!!! she looked so adorable!
walked ard e area after dat..
n my heels almost killed mi!
mi, julie & mei mei were struggling like mad while dearest
ame jus pranced ard happily in her sports shoes~!
oh yar, ameeee looked so CUTE!!!!!
she looks like a little mischievious china boy..heh ;)
explored e jazz bar at boat quay..
ended up at simpang bedok 4 supper..
yummy prata!!!!!
told u guys dat e prata boom was gd! ;)
ate until 12 plus n dearest kor picked mi n mei mei up..

ALSO, MJC WON E SOCCER FINALS AGAINST VJC!!!
yay!!! it was such an incredible match!
hahah, was even more stressful than collectin our O lvl results lar!!!
heh..cheered like mad, we were so damn high!!
super fun!
n 4 once, we actually felt a burst of love 4 mj..
n even sang e sch song!!!
no. 33 rocks man....zuuuuuuu...u r e man!
haha, my new idol!
of cos, e hol dat ms lai declared on fri made e nite even BETTER!
CANT BELIEVE WE WON man...its surreal :)

i feel like playin soccer!!
eh wm, shall fight it out wif u on e field den!
may e best man win!
n i wanna sing-a-ling-a-ling too..lets sing our hearts out!
oh yar, happie happie happie bdae CS!!!!!
hope u enjoyed urself..n may u stay cheerful always!! :)
u r welcome abt e pres..kai xin jiu hao!
haha, shld thank cm instead ma..heh..

alrighto, i shall zzzz now..
thx to e soccer boys, there's no sch tmr!!

2005-05-25T22:26:00.000+08:00

I want you to hold my hand, with your fingers entwined in mine :)

2005-05-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

stupid. stupid. stupid. i hate it.
its funny how u can matter so much to someone.
and feel absolutely wretched abt it.
wad comes ard, goes ard.
i dno wad to tink anymore.
wanna jus lock myself up. alone.
i m sorry.

It's like i always figured
You'd be gone from me so soon
A heartache would be the outcome
And i'd be singing this lonely tune

Your friends all tell me your happy now
And how good she's treating you
It looks to be the perfect love
Well tonight, i'll be lonely too

You're only trying to show me
It's no use, the pain's in your eyes
I know you've been so unhappy
Talk of new love, the words are all lies

So you'll go on pretending like always
Well tonight, i'll be lonely too
You're only trying to show me
It's no use, the pain's in your eyes
I know you've been so unhappy

2005-05-18T20:25:00.000+08:00

i love racing game! tink i haf a new addiction~!
no more dai dee alliances but RACING queen alliance!! :)
of cos, mi & ah juju r e reignin ones lar!
bite our dust lizzie & xiao ben! heh heh heh heh!!

liz's hse is simply burstin wif food!
n her maid is an efficient fruits cutter!
ate lots of funny taiwan eggs & beef jerky..
which reminds mi dat ah juju still haven repay mi my
LONG waited 6 mochi ah!!!
dun tink i forgot lor ;) hahaha....

kor kor kindly offered to pick mi up...
n my 2 other planetarians were so shy, its gross!!
haha, ame, wait till i tell him abt ur fetish 4 his bed..
n ur sneakin ard his clothes cupboard ahhhh!!! ;)
c where u put ur face...

anyway, SLC has ended.. -a suppressed grin-
las session today..was quite funnn...
played connect 4..
used up all my brain power!!
tink i wld miss mentorin...i TINK..
mayb not miss mentorin but miss my mentees...
n dis indicates dat e exams r reallie loomin near..sigh.
hmmmm...ash, u take care k...we r here 4 u.
dun tink abt it..it wld b fine..dun worry :)

2005-05-16T20:12:00.000+08:00

Blame it on e weatherman...!!!
nv ever TRUST e Straits Time weather forecast..
if u muz, take e opposite readin & u wld b fine :)
And..today marks e historical milestone in MY academic life....
-drumsroll-
No more irritatin NAPFA 4 e rest of my life!! =D
dats my kind of life.

2005-05-10T22:36:00.000+08:00

ok, dis wk is e 8th wk.
meanin dat i officially haf ONLY 2 more wks to clear all
hist essay maps, econs mcq n essay n lit notes.
gosh, so dead so dead so dead.
e official study plan dat i did in wk 5 has been laggin n i m
utterly disgusted by myself 4 my procreastination.
by hook or by crook (or by death),
i wld finish them by dis wk even if it means gg w/o slp @ all.
e entire june hols wld b devoted to MEMORISING e insane amt of
hist essays, econs essay n lit quotes!
n i dun even tink dat dat is enuff time. simply wonderful.

Week 5
Econs : CEP & Market failure
History: Imperialism
Lit : Language

Week 6
Econs : Dd and Ss, Elasticities & Labour mkt
History: Industrial Revolultion
Lit : Characterisation

Week 7
Econs : P and C & Market structures
History: SEA Economic aspects
Lit : Characterisation

Week 8
Econs : NIA & EG
History: Sea Political Aspects
Lit : Themes

Week 9
Econs : Keynes & Unemployment
History: SBQ Topics 1 to 4
Lit : Themes

Week 10
Econs : Money, I/R & Inflation
History: SBQ Topics 5 to 8
Lit : Structure, Style & Setting

June Wk 1
Econs : Int Trade, BOP & Forex
History: Memorise SEA economic, social & political
Lit : Read notes on THMT, 1984 & Utopia

June Wk 2
Econs : ROG & Macroeconomic policies
History: Memorise SEA nationalism
Lit : Read notes on M4M

June Wk 3
Econs : Revision
History: Memorise new imperialism & Nat
Lit : Silas Marner & A and C

June Wk 4
Econs : Revision
History: FR & IR
Lit : Quotations, Paper 8

** Things accomplished:
- CEP & Market failure
- Imperialism
- Language of Silas Marner
- Dd & SS, Elasticities
- Labour Market
- Production & Cost

And dis means dat i m damn behind e damn schedule above.
argh..!

***Things to catch up on:
- Market Structure
- NIA & EG
- SEA Economic aspects
- SEA Political aspects
- Language of THMT
- Characterization of THMT & Silas Marner
- Themes of THMT & Silas Marner

N dis whole of thgs wld MERELY put mi back on schedule.
Has to b done in 4 days. Not forgettin e mountains of hw awaitin.

*** Homework:
- 3 hist SBQ on SEA
- WW1 SBQ
- Paper 8 essay map on Macbeth
- Paper 8 essay map on e 2 poems
- Utopia Essay
- Econs WB DRQ
- Econs WB Essays on BOP
- Econs remedial essay

somebody pls save mi.

2005-05-01T19:03:00.000+08:00

e legendary "sotong" face..made poopular by amanda e great!

2005-05-01T19:01:00.000+08:00

to tink i treated u as my DEAREST alliance!! haha..how dare u bully mi on ur blog?! -devastated- grr..! u made mi sound like a TOTALL bimbo lar u eviil julie!

2005-04-30T00:30:00.000+08:00

hellooooo!!
today was a good day :)
was in such a hyper n happy mood..life is good!
heh, tink i totally scared ame n mei mei wif my mood man!
ok, make dat e whole class..
i was e onli one ALIVE n kickin out of e class of zombies!

hahah..din go sch on thurs..reallie bad headache...
n mei mei said she MISSED me! ame too!
(u knew u loved mi b4 u met mi)
wahahaha... ;)
i love love love u guys too! muackz!
ehhhh..lets c wad happened today...
gave julie a PLEASANT surprise on her wallpaper!
admit it, u liked it didn't u julie??

lessons were horrible as usual..but nvm..
its life AFTER sch dat matters!
wanted to go explorin today..
was in e mood 4 an adventure..to go sumwhere dat
i haf nv gone b4..
n we decided on e salvation army!!
but in e end, we ate @ delifrance n crapped 4 so loooong
dat we din haf time..
cos ame n mei mei had 2 meet chris @ mei mei's hse..boo.
was so disappointed!!

went to ash's hse wif lizzie..
her hse is pretty..love her garden man!!
(jake is SCARY though...)
hanged ard in her rm..tokin nonsense..
n i m proud to say dat i believe e 2 of them haf officially
mastered e porky slang!!
in fact, they master it so well dat they even do it
subconsiously! hahaha!
we did a video on dat n its reallie disgustin!
eh, i nv knew i sounded liddat lar!

haha..took lots of pictures!
sumbody ACT cute ah..unlike another sumbody whose
cuteness exudes frm within!! ;) heeeee...
den we wanted to head over to e salvation army..
but it was too late alreadi! wahh...
reached home at ard 8..

lizzie, pls dun b dis-illusioned!
i did NOT feel a wave of sadness after seeing u board e cab!!
hahah..hallucination ah u!
(okie fine, jus a teeny weeny little bit)
hope u haf a nice nite tonite dear! enjoy ur freedom :)
retail theraphy 4 us @ holland v on mon k!
yay!! its gonna b another adventure!

hahah..i m overwhelmed by a surge of love 4 my frenz man..
mei mei despite of her blurness, ame n her goofy smile,
lizzie n her "twinkle" ah lian dat cracked us up so hard,
julie minus her most frequent outbursts of EVIL-ness n of cos,
ash n her immense little crush on yours truly!

I love love love you guys! Its true love 4ever :)

2005-04-28T08:48:00.000+08:00

Pics taken on amanda e "great" 18th bdae! :)

Plan B: http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2127521217
Escape: http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2127521490

2005-04-28T08:29:00.000+08:00

Pirates on board! Love dis pic :)

2005-04-28T08:28:00.000+08:00

e intimidating tea-cup ride..

2005-04-28T08:26:00.000+08:00

e dysfunctional DAI DEE family..so hppy together :)

2005-04-28T08:24:00.000+08:00

e championships of e "assholes"!

2005-04-27T19:11:00.000+08:00

can i haf jus one more day of sec sch pls?
jus 24 hrs n i wld b contented.

was reminiscing wif mei mei n ame jus now..
e memories had us laughin...in happiness, n in loss.
bittersweet.

4j. 24 guys n 4 gals.
super looooong toilet breaks. hair blowin sessions!
mr helmZ n ms huda.
pe. hidin behind e tree. monday lu mian.
rah rah n her missin file fiasco!
love among lies.
triple S. kallang mac. diao qiao.
lu shao mei: "bu ke yi he shui!"
mr kiw. cme lesson. clip up, tuck in, switch off fan.
guides cookies. beady eyes.
rim rian joo. sweet potato. war commander.
"shake it up!"
hostel days. pocahontas shirt!
class noticeboard. bu yao qing yan fang qi :)

where r u?

2005-04-26T20:46:00.000+08:00

I dreamt of ferris wheels..pretty.
all thx to wm hu told mi to watch tiramisu whereby e lovers were in a ferris wheel..
having e most magical moment of their lives.
simply beautiful. enchanting. breath-takin.
ok, i haf decided.
my perfect date muz include a ferris wheel ride..
eh, wldn't it b nice to get married on one!!! :)
but now, jus gotta make do wif wad small little cute spore has..
n dat is, e escape theme pk's ferris wheel. boo.
better than nothin huh~!
yuppie, supposedly going there wif cs, cm n wm e worm next sat..
till i meet my prince charmin, e ferris wheel shall onli sit me n me alone..haha.

hot hot hot day!
n e tons of wk to b done is killin me..
my dear planetarians, can we haf e econs consultatn soon pls?
grrrrr...! -menacing glare-
alrighto, tata!

2005-04-19T22:13:00.000+08:00

I remember the first time I saw you
You had an uncanny magical power
I could feel myself yearning to inch closer to you
The second time I saw you, I didn't feel so happy
Because I sensed the distance between you and me
Is this love, or are you too beautiful?

It made me do incredible things
All I know is that if it makes you happy,
I'm willing to do anything to get close to you
I just have to keep those words i wanted to say in my heart
Because all i want is for you to be happy
I know it'll be tough on me, and I'll get upset
But im willing to do anything,
No matter any thunderstorm or where you are

I know how sweet you and your guy are together
So I can only stay by your side and watch over you
Every time he holds your hand, my tears start to flow
But I can only back off quietly, suppressing my pain

a beautiful masterpiece! :)
proudly brought to u by pauline e great n wm e worm!

2005-04-13T16:28:00.000+08:00

hmm..i tink e issue has gone slightly too far? its jus a misunderstandin.. after listenin to liane, i tink she made sense on sum aspects. yea, we skipped e lect on wed n tt is our fault.
since we dare to do dat, we muz b ready n prepared to take e shit dat comes along wif it.
jus forget abt e whole thg k.. it wld do us gd by sittin in front..it wld do us gd 2 go for 7 to 9.
dun let e class b divided jus cos of dis. like e communists, we haf blown it out of proportons yar?
we stand as a class no matter wad happens :)

alrighto, furthermore, today's econs lect was ok..no remarks targetted at us or sumthg..
dun let dis get us down. or make us hate econs even more!
yada yada yada, dis whole thg is old news! no pt harpin on it anymore lar..
bottomline: case closed! 04A202 wld still b a happy, whacky, slacky, smarty, lovey n FUN class :) 3 distinctions, watch out 4 us!
e aim is meted out by ur welfare rep. otherwise known by rude little gals as auntie porky.

2005-04-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

hello! ages since i blogged...but an online conversation wif my dearest julie, lizzie, ash n ame had compelled mi to start breathin new life into dis almost dead blog! ;)

past wk had been gd lar...ate @ sakae on tues! yummm....but sadly, poor lizzie n julie endin up wif food poisonin!! n abandoned us little ones in sch all alone to fend 4 ourselves!!

hmmm..our impusive act on wed had created a whole new spate of events..
i apologise for implicatin e whole class due to our irresponsibility but e 4 of us reallie cld not take it any longer..we wld jus go bonkers. all e stress n all..yea, dats not gd enuff a reason to explain our misdeed we r aware..yup, we apologise.

however, i feel dat e whole consequences dat followed had reallie been blown out of proportions. i mean, there definitely exist sum elements of unfair treatment in there rite? its blatant. i agree dats its our fault. but i do not agree at all wif e style of handlin thgs.

Firstly, if makin e whole class sit rite in front of ur v eyes, so close dat u can even sniff us, is ur utmost burnin desire, fine. i accept dat. dats ur right as a teacher n givin u e benefit of doubt, its probably 4 our own good. @ least we wld b payin attention huh..

HOWEVER, wads wif dat smirk? correct mi if i m wrong but it does seem as if u haf gained some great immense satisfaction at seeing us get banished rite down to e front? is dat sumthg we ought to tolerate? okie, even if we r being overly sensitive abt dat...wad abt e scathin remarks dat lies deep undertones dat insinuate insults at our class were downright obvious..does it trigger sum sadistic notion of happiness at seeing us squirm wif embarrassement? alright, its ur right as a teacher lar, we concede.

is it our fault dat we r not mathematically inclined? ok, for dat matter, not even "NUMERICALLY" inclined as u said? everyone has their strengths n weaknesses n now, it seem as though we had committed sum grave crime 4 being a little slow in graspin e concepts. well, haf we ever laughed at e science classes 4 being weak in their GP? i dun tink so. so y is it dat we r being unfairly targetted here?

wad we nid is ur patience, perhaps, as a teacher, more time shld b spent at educatin ur students n PATIENTLY helpin them in understandin their wk instead of devotin sooooo much time, effort n brain cells in thinkin of more "intelligent" remarks to target us. e bottomline is, give us a break pls. econs is hard enuff. n u r not makin it any easier 4 us wif ur insensitivity. wad ever happened to mjc teachers teachin wif love, patience n devotion? scarcity.

eh sorry, i retract dat statement back. wif e exception of u, hu haf not even taught our class b4 or even noe our abilities on a personal level, other teachers like mr pang, ms loh sein ling, mdm R, ms wong may ling n e lit teachers had been v encouragin. we noe it n we appreciate it. perhaps dats how a gd teacher shld b like.

but wadever it is, dis whole fiasco has caused a rift in our class. n is it even worth it? c'mon, we r a class. n ultimately, we gotta stand as a class, work together, push each other n slog our ass off 4 e grades we desire! lets prove to those hu look at us wif tinted glasses dat we can do it k :) yea, so lets not waste ani more brain juices on dis issue lar..we got more impt thgs 2 do guys!!

on a lighter note, e singin session @ my place was gooooooood!! lizzie, is e best singin partner i cld ask 4! look out spore idol, here comes e daidee sistas!!! ;) muahahas! n e sleepover was gd too..ame n julie stayed over, n i muz say it was an unforgettable nite huh? hahaha! sum stuff ought to b censored k!! -hint hint- ok fine, pretty pls pls!!! my embarrasin moment.

had lots of fun 2 coffee bean tokin nonsense after sch today! wif julie n liz n e 3 of us...hahaha..e plan is going vvvvv smoothly! wif faith's mum's help of cos! ;)

okie dokes, in 4 another battle until e weekend is here! n mei mei's bash wld b great :)

2005-04-01T18:57:00.000+08:00

So why do I feel confused..Why do I feel so used
Like a worn-out thought you threw away
It wasn't what you said, it's what you didn't say
Where are the windows, where are the doors?
I haven't the key to your heart anymore
I haven't a clue to what's gone wrong
Cause you look at me sometimes as if I weren't there

It isn't what you said, its what you didn't say
So look at me one last time
With eyes that still know how to shine
Hold me like you won't let go..But you'll let go anyway.

No one belongs where they're not wanted
You're just a ghost, and my heart is haunted.

So hold her closer when she cries
Hold her closer when she feels
She needs a hand to hold
Someone who'll never let her go again

And hold him closer when he tries
To hold the tears back from his eyes
Don't say goodbye

Random Happenings:
1. An "urgent n compulsory" lit lect wif THREE pissy lit teachers.
2. Down 4 lit consultation..Yea, i noe it is my privilege.
3. A miraculous C for hist.
4. Mei mei's new name............. -drumsroll- ............ SIOBHAN! ( pronounced as SIO-BAN)
5. An ultra fun, silly, crazy session of charades @ Swensons wif Ash, Julie, Liz, Siobhan n Sio-may...E attached VS e bachelorettes.
6. "Sotong wif Chilli Sauce" & "Nanyang Optical". They RAWKKK lor! humph.
7. Unforgettable mentorin session.
8. Ame's immense outrage due to a 12 yr old kid's seemingly INNOCENT remark. Muahahas.
9. Study session until 7 plus on Campfire nite. Malayan Emergency.
10. Mr Wee. Lit consultation. Question. Critique. Outline.
11. Ms K's remark dat made my dayyyyyyyy :) Poor Ame though..heh.
12. Ms Loh's showers of love. Cookies. Awwwwwwww....Melted & motivated.
13. E great escape adventure from PCCG.
14. Intense n demoralisin econs tut wif Mdm. Nag nag nag nag...sigh.
15. 5 pathetic marks 4 case study. Simply wonderful.
16. E masterpieces of e 3 amigoes.....Comintern.
17. AMAZING RACE!! " e tribe has spoken...." N e winners r e nimble n agile BACHELORETTES. Ribenas as reward ;)
18. "Rapusa Rapusa..Let down ur hair!" E embarrasing downfall of porky. hahaha!
19. Ban Mian. Ribena. Willy Wonka's chocs n sweets frm Pearl's. Double choc chip muffin. choc cake. Choc chip cookie. Yummmmm....
20. " Lockkkk a byeeeee Ameee onnn e TLEEEE topp..." -beautiful& soothin voice-
21. E "fillipino" meets e "Jap" n irritates e shit out of poor ameeee.

a stressful week dotted wif some elements of delight in e form of charades n our dear "attached". 8 more weeks to e June hols..yippee :)

2005-03-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

grandpa's condition seem to b improvin..
bringin home frm e hospital 4 home care so dat he wont haf 2 b stuck in dat dreary place..
nurse wld b comin over everyday to stick those tubes n needles into him.
N now, its now grandma's turn to b fallin ill.
same symptons. darn. hope its nothin serious..
-fingers crossed-

2005-03-27T18:02:00.000+08:00

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone.

Crying on e corner, waiting in the rain..I swear I'll never, ever wait again.

heyyy..it has been one looooong wk.
block tests r over..
but sumhow, i dun seem to b in any "holiday mood" @ all..
jus feel overwhelmed to study even harder. weird.
eh, but i m positive e resolution wont las long.
tink i screwed my bloack tests though.
dno wad gibberish i was writin..
luckily, e qns spotted came out though.
ha, ame is e best lor!
when doing e hist paper can still go ask lao mei wad e pts
4 burma were..tsk tsk!! naughty ah!

went to e hospital wif my grandpa on wed..
he came to spore earlier cos he was runnin a high fever again,
sigh...n its serious dis time.
when he came into e hse after he reached spore..
e first tink he said when he saw mi was,
"min, gong gong yao si le..."..
i was so shocked.
he was nv like dat b4...its like as though he had given up on himself.
it was terrible, he looked terrible.
high fever, nauseous, pain adomen..
din even eat anythin at all.
was so weak dat he cld not even go to e toilet himself.

e lab results were vvvvv negative.
e doc told us dat his condition was serious.
liver damage suspected.
had to b admitted to e hospital 4 indefinite time.
nv seen my dad n aunt looked so worried n upset b4.
so i rushed bac to pack my grandpa's stuff so dat
he cld b admitted on e same day.
e service at e hospital was not bad lar..e nurses r all damn nice.
ha, but its a 5-star hospital..its expected of them.

yea..so 4 e past few days, i had been spendin e
most of my wakin hours at e hospital..vistin hrs were 9 to 9.
n its a depressin place.
there was dis kid..prob onli 12 or 13..wif cancer in e next rm..
but he was still so positive n cheerful abt everythg.
after seein dat sight, u wld tink dat everythin else
seemed so flighty n trivial.
our probs r miniscule in comparisons.
while we r out shoppin n gallivantin, dis poor kid is fightin
a losin battle against cancer.
life is unfair.

everyday when i go to e hospital..
grandpa wld look so frail n weak lyin in e hospital bed..
wif all sorts of tubes n needles inserted into him.
gosh, wad wrong had he done to deserve all dis??!
he is one admirable man, one dat i had always looked up to.
but now..he has to go through all dis..sux man.
n e situation bac home had been far frm peaceful.
dis horrible husband of another aunt of mine came down frm hongkong.
n all sorts of conflict btwn him n my aunt r arising.
tension. curt replies. cold wars.
stop actin like kids will u?!
n my poor dad is caught right smak in e middle.
its a blame game.

everythin is lookin so bleak right now.
due to this, i m so behind frm my wk..
n i dun haf e mood to get ard to doing them.
haven even gone to ivle to listen to mr pang's lecture.
grandpa dun seem to b doing better.
jus great.

2005-03-17T19:14:00.000+08:00

Ye xu ni bu hui dong cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou, wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le.

Did I hear you right? Cos i thought you said, Lets think it over.
u have been my life, And I nv planned, Growing old w/o u.

Shadows bleeding thru e light,Where e love
Once shined so bright, Came w/o a reason.
Don't let go on us tonight, Love's not always
Black n white, why haven I always loved u?

And when I need u..u r almost here..N I know dats not enough.
And when Im with u, Im close to tears..Cos u r only almost here.

I wld change e world, If I had a chance, Oh won't you let me.
Treat me like a child, Throw ur arms ard me, Oh pls protect me.
Bruised n battered by ur words, Dazed n shattered now it hurts.
Oh haven I always loved u?

But when i need u, u r almost here..
(Well I nv knew how far behind I left u)
And when I hold u, u r almost here..
(Well Im sorry tt I took our love 4 granted)
And now Im with u, I'm close to tears
Cos I know I'm almost here. Only almost here.

Really sad songs.."Almost here" n "Tong hua".
courtesy of wm e BlackZ! but i din wanna hear sad songs..thxx alot man!
ha.my han yu pin ying nubbad ah! purrfect :)
jus watched e mtv 4 tong hua..my gosh..its like e saddest thg i haf ever watched!
y muz e girl die?? cliche yes i noe, but sad nonetheless.
dats life? i dno..
@ least she experienced true, selfless love b4?
it wld b nice 2 haf an explosive love..i wld die wif no regrets man..hahaha.
but he is so chee ko pek lar..! haiyo..stared so blatantly @ her boobs!!
tsk tsk..n she let him summore!! even kissed him!

ok, wad gibberish.
i m so screwed 4 e block tests i m tellin u...feel so dead.
yet, wad m i doing online???
hahaha..i nid a miracle :)

2005-03-10T16:30:00.000+08:00

Show her the rainbow, for rainbows don't wait.
And soon she's a woman; too soon it's too late.
Rainbows and childhood too soon disappear;
Like an illusion, you thought they were here.
Someday a rainbow may be hard to find.
And childhood and rainbows will be left behind.
Like ripples on water they vanish and fade.
Then what will become of the plans that you made?

So take time to show her the wonderful things
Like snowflakes and dewdrops and butterfly wings.
Show her the moonbeams that shine down at night...
A sky full of starlight all twinkling and bright.
Soon you'll discover some treasures can't wait,
So show her the rainbow before it's too late.
Yes, show her the rainbow while she is still small.
Or soon you will find there's no rainbow at all.

"What would it be like to swing on a star, or walk on a cloud? "

i like julie n lizzie lots!!
hahaha..life wif them is fun :)
julie feels like an old, comfy fren while little lizzie feels like
a dear motherly fren hu exudes character!
yuppp! dai dee sessions wif them r pure bliss..!
opps! which reminds mi, i haf a confession 2 make!! -whimpers-
we broke our vow...e vow to abstain frm dai dee!
heh..gosh!! now i noe how drug addicts n smokers feel man..
i EMPHATISE wif them!
howwww??? we r so dead my kakis!

our day of cold turkey was so unbearable..
hahaha..supposed to go to e lib together after sch to study together..
den in e end, in a show of spontanity, we unanimously decided to go 2
airport instead 4 ban mian..heh..
n in e end, we ended up eatin sakae!
wow, its my FULLEST n most bloated sakae meal EVER man!!
hahaha...practically rolled out of e restaurant..wif a huge sushi baby growin in my tummy!
n e best thg is, we din study at all!!
opps! ;)

on wed...we reallie cld bear it no longer n played during gp n recess..
followed up wif rehena's tut cos she din cum (hooray!!)
n still was not satisfied!!
so, we continued e game during e lit lect which we ponned..
n e break all e way till cca...
was reallie contemplatin ponnin cca jus to satify our cravin!!
wanted to go airport but it was too far 4 lizzie..so we went 4 mentorin.

i m jus soooooo relieved dat mi n mei mei r takin e p6 kids 4 mentorin..!
e others r jus so rowdy n naughty.
makin e other mentors haf such a hard time controllin them..
haha..while we were happily playin our little game of hangman wif e p6s
in e other room..was so peaceful man.
went home n had a niceeee looong sleep..n my throat hurts. boo!

2005-03-07T22:30:00.000+08:00

***ANNOUNCEMENT:
We, e kakis of "asshole daidee" hereby pledge to FULLY abstain frm daidee for a period of 2 weeks..Should u c us playin, u shall possess e ULTIMATE right of slappin us awake!!!

argh!!
daidee withdrawal symptons...
stayed bac after pe today to play our las few rounds
of daidee until after e block tests ends...
n i reallie DONT noe how we r gonna do it!!!!
boo!!!

ok, i muz tell u one HUGE pissifyin thg dat happened today man!!!
grrr..! ka pui!!!
we were all anxiously waitin 4 our dear principal
to announce to e sch dat we wld haf a half day in light
of our "excellent results" (quoted frm e big red banner hangin @ e linkway.. oh wow, how very subtle)
n to my utmost HORROR..
e half day is scheduled to b on FRIDAY!!
can u believe it?!?
dats our earliest day lar!
e stupid half day wld not make any significant diff 2 us at all!!!!
today is our looooooooong day lor!!
end @ 3 30..
wif super drab periods summore..
its a conspiracy i tell u..!
boo baba bi poo POOT!!!!! !@@! humph. irritatin! TO THE MAX!

i was so pissed!!!
totally cld not suppress dat horrible inhuman screech dat
came out of my mouth!
haha..sorry guys!
made julie laugh until she cried cos of it...
heh..dat silly goose!
eh partner, we die lar!
how can we LOSE to "those ppl"!!!!
i demand a rematch!
heh..may they "c**ke"on their desserts!
haha..but cannot die!!
if not no more kaki alreadi! ;) dun worry..we r aware of ur value!!

if it were today, we cld play dai dee 4 damn loooooooong lar..
instead, we cld onli indulge in 1.5 pathetic hrs of daidee..
e immense SORROW we felt when julie kept e cards was indescribable! hahaha..

ok, we got lots of wk to do..!!
frm daidee addict to hw addict!
a "beautiful transistion" :)

2005-03-05T15:02:00.000+08:00

When a girl cries in front of a guy.

If a girl cries in front of you, it means that she couldnt take it anymore.
If you take her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life..
But if you let her go, she wld not b able 2 go back to being herself anymore.

A girl wont cry easily..
However, in front of the person who she loves the most, she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily..
but when she loves you the most, she puts down her ego.

If a girl cries because of you, please hold her hands firmly..
she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.
If a girl cries because of you, please dont give her up..
Maybe cos of your decision, you ruin her life.

When she cry rite in front of you..When she cry cos of you,
Look into her eyes, Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?
Think. Which other girl have cried wif pure sincerity, In front of you, And cos of you?
She cries not because she is weak, She cries not bcoz she wan sympathy or pity..
She cries..Because crying silently is no longer possible.
The pain, hurt n agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside.

Think about it..If a girl cry her heart out 2 you, And all because of you,
Its time to look back on wat u have done..Only you will know the answer to it.
Mybe in dis life..she wld be e only one dat love YOU e most.
Do consider it. Cos one day, It may be too late for regrets..
It may be too late to say "im sorry".

e past wk had been surprisingly nice n peaceful..
haha..yupp..
n e j1s dat i noe of did nubbad 4 their Os..
(though there were jus a little small disturbances
here n there..rite mei mei? heh..)

n e gd news is dat mj did really well 4 e As dis yr..
ms lai was soooo elated dat she even made a PA announcement
durin econs lect to inform us of e gd resuts...
wow..impressive man..
100% passes for lots of subjects..n quite a number of
them obtained straight distinctions :)
scary..its gonna b us in a yr's time..collectin OUR results...
dat tot is frightenin! hahaha..buck up pauline chen!!!
ok, nvm..hope there wld b a half day 4 us on MON!!

went to eat seoul garden after sch wif mei mei n ame..
gosh..we ate so much dat we felt so darn uncomfortably bloated!
mountains of green noodles n black pepper beef!!
hahaha..yummmm..
n my dear planetarians made mi feel like a princess of e day man!
heh..ame took ice-cream 4 mi, mei mei fed mi ice-cream..
n even peeled prawns 4 mi man!
hmm..e "princess" treatment sure feels gd :) i wan more!!!

e daidee fever is ON!!
alive n kickin!! morphin into e level of addiction!!
gosh..we r so dead!
we spent every single free waking moment to indulge in it!
eyes lightin up n e sight of e cards!
madness..insanity..but..damn fun lar! :) hahaha..
wad started out as an innocent game had scaled levels to become
a full-fleged championship, tinged wif lots of tension n stress!!
it has become a BATTLE!!

check out e extend of our madness:

1. playing daidee every single free period dat we haf in sch..be it recess, lunch or even certain pon-able lit lects!

2. multi-tasking..playing daidee n wolfin down our lunch at record speed..ALL AT THE SAME TIME!!

3. takin a cab down to e airport, investin in a brand-new pack of cards jus to satisfy our insatiable addiction!!

4. findin an inconspicuous spot at e corner of bk in e airport, camouflagin our cards wif all sorts of nots so as not to get caught by e bk attendants!

5. gg down to e airport e very next day again to resume our game..n dis time, e match lasted 4 a grand total of 4.5 HOURS! n we were not bored at all!

6. sneakin in a few rds of super fast daidee while waitin 4 e teacher to cum to class..eyes lightin up wif undisguised glee when we c our kakis!!

7. feelin an immense sense of loss n sadness when one of our kakis nv cum to sch!! (eg, lizzie!! :p)

8. willing to stay bac in sch on a FRIDAY afternoon for 2 whole hrs after dismissal jus to play a few more rounds of daidee!

9. creatin an extremey organised n professional logbook to tabulate each players' regime in e world of e "assholes"!

10. employin a poor innocent fren (akae poor ame) to assume recorder responsibilties 4 our logbook :)

oh wow!! hahaha..we rock! i hate to tink of e days dat we haf to go cold-turkey!! i wld die man!!! hahaha..dis is super fun lar...e championship shall resume soon ah!

presenting my dear daidee kakis.......-drumsroll- .......julie nirvana (my loyal n faithful alliance) , lim xiao ben ( e disillusioned "asshole") n lizzie fizzy ( e professional n reignin queen of all times!!)

2005-02-28T17:17:00.000+08:00

A butterfly lights beside us,
Like a sunbeam...
And for a brief moment it's glory and beauty
Belong to our world...
But then it flies on again,
And although we wish it could have stayed,
We are thankful to have seen it at all.

It takes both the sun and the rain to make a beautiful rainbow.

heya..
grandpa went back on fri nite..
yupp..n he is much better now..
wld b back in spore in a mth's time 4 his lab results..
thx to all dat had him in his prayers..
n those dat cared..
i reallie appreciated it :)

monday.
argh!
its a horrible cycle. detestable.
i reallie hate sch man..
jus dun haf e motivatn to go..
haha..
funny how dis had nv happened to mi b4 in sec sch..
we nv ponned sch b4 den. nv ever.
ha..shows e intense dislike we all haf 4 sch huh..
boo.
2 more wks till e march hols.
i jus cant wait..!

hahaha..today our class had FULL attendance!
n as mr conrad says, its a rare sightin!
heh...
believe it or not, dis is e first day in 2005
dat 04A202 had a full attendance!
haha..we r jus so incredible! ;)

slackkk day..
played asshole dai dee wif julie, liz n mei mei...
it was darn EXCITING lar!
n i m proud 2 announce dat
mi n julie, e invincible duo,
totally trashed liz n mei mei!
we haf a superb alliance man!! :) heee...
finally, e regime of lizzie has collapsed!
hoho!

pe was slack too 4 once!
hahaha..
they got us to carry planks again..
n mi n mei mei were so enthu 4 sum weird reason!
i tink we were possessed!
heh..almost died man.
e instant when all e weight of e planks
were left 4 us two weaklings to handle..hahaha.
ben si le..

i haf lots of hw to do..
but sumhow, i jus cant get myself started!!
darn. dis sux.
e vicious-ness of tutorials..boo.

hmmm..today is e day when e 'O' level results r out.
it has been a yr.
a loooooong, dreadful yr.
i can still vividly recall dat horrible feelin
i had jus b4 i collected my results.
n e emotions dat ensued after dat.
ha, not a pretty sight is all i shall say.
e tears..e sinkin feelin, e disapointment..
yup, n here we go again...

i wanna noe how u did.
cos i still care.
but there's jus dis huge mental obstacle
dat prevents mi frm doing so.
n i cant beat it..much as my heart compells mi to.
haha..hope it was gd :)

2005-02-23T13:09:00.000+08:00

IMPORTANT: Mei mei declared tt poor little yuan yuan was BORING!!!! pls report dis to yuan yuan's original owner.

*** WARNING! e following entry may appear to b incoherant to e less intelligent readers. ;)
Co-written by pauline e great (in pink colour) and amanda e worm. ( in blue colour)

poor xiao yuan..
onli got godma to teng u now..godma lovelove.
lovelove e owner too! i mean, e ORIGINAL!

hey yOo.. how are yOo?
where do yOo live?
-hahaha..quoted frm e legendary EDWIN-

si lao mei is here to wreak havoc.
disclaimer: pls do not believe her. she is lying!

porky and her nonsense.

last night was horrid
we seriously lack sleep
we look so dead
and we are stuck in the library doing history

DUN BELIEVE HER!!!!!
she attempts to make herself sound so victimised!
but i m here to report NOTHING but e truth!!!
hahaha, she did even finish her tutorials lor!!
horrid?!!? dats rubbish! heh..

i shall not write anything further before the truth gets more twisted!
TWISTED?!?!?!
DATS A PACK OF LIES!
okie, off to meet e great old pang now!! ;)

HISTORY ROCKS OUR SOCKS!

2005-02-21T21:58:00.000+08:00

My sis, my grandpa n me :)
taken las june..in jakarta.
he is reachin in less than 2 hrs!
i cant wait man!
i shall devote myself to nursin him back to health!

2005-02-19T18:55:00.000+08:00

why is it dat i always tink of y o u whenever i m down,
wantin u to comfort mi like how u always did?
shows how i much i once depended on u huh..weak.
dad is bringin grandpa over to spore tmr 4 his operation..
it wld b alright. i noe it wld b alright..please.

2005-02-18T20:43:00.000+08:00

All i wan is 4 u to get well soon..Please do.
Nothing else matters @ all.

I, I dont know why..
Why you need some reason to feel lost inside
You, you know that I'm alright
You know that I'm just the kind of girl
That feels so hurt and smiles
I don't use excuses.

Don't ask why..It's just a breakdown
It happens all the time
So get out of my face..Don't even try.
You wanna help me? Just let me cry..

i had e worst nite of my life ever.
firstly, my dear planetarian ameeeee pissed mi off!
ha..but it all turned out to b a misuderstandin i guess..
heh...e strength of our friendship ah :)
tink we scared mei mei!!
yup..den mei mei's grandma fell v sick..
had a high fever n all..
n e nite jus went downhill frm there..

dad called wif reallie horrible news...
my indo grandpa was hospitalized..
he has kidney prob apparently..
n now, there is sum sort of complications cos
he is down wif dengue fever..
makin his defenses reallie low.
it may not sound dat serious..
but hey, he is 83!
so its all e more dangerous.

i nv felt so scared n helpless in my
whole life b4.
i jus cld not imagine wad i wld do
if i were to lose him, heaven forbid.
he is e grandparent dat i m closest too..
a total sweetie.
n i love him wif all my heart.
its him hu made all my childhood memories
so dear.
i dun care abt anythin else.
jus as long as he gets well soon.
nothin else matters.

darn. i wanna fly over NOW!
i wanna b e one by his side.
it was a long horrible nite.
was on my toes e whole nite..
waitin 4 any news of my grandpa frm my aunt.
n everytime e phone rang..
i was so scared.
pls pls pls let him b fine.
i promise i wld b a gd gal.
feel so helpless.

yup..spent e entire nite in a daze..
jus starin @ e com screen blankly when
i was supposed to b doing wk..
cld not concentrate at all.
mei mei n i were takin turns to
comfort each other.
n all seemed so bleak.
yup...tokked to wm..
n his encouragin words cheered mi up a little.
thanks :)

din sleep whole nite.
went to sch like a zombie..
n my dear ame had to come irritate mi
when i was not in e best of moods!!
sorry 4 snapppin @ u..
heh..but u asked 4 it! ;)
reallie slackkkk day..thank goodness 4 dat.
mdm was in a reallie gd mood.
revealed to us a whole lot of secrets..
she is so NOT wad she seems to b!

wad else? eh...
went to suntec after sch..
bot a ripcurl bag..nice but jus a tad small?
nvm, ame "kindly" agreed to help mi carry
all e stuff dat i cant fit into my bag rite?
so kind! :)
its e weekend..seems bleak though.
n next wk is gonna b a slackkkk wk..
okie, byeeeee..!

2005-02-17T10:03:00.000+08:00

If I had another chance tonight
I wld try to tell u that e thgs we had were right
Time can erase the love we share
But it gives me time 2 realize jus how much u cared
Now u r gone, I'm really not the same
I guess I held myself to blame

Time can erase the love we shared
But it gives me time to realize jus how much u cared
You know I wont hold you back now,
The love we had just cant be found

I always remind myself
Though you were once someone in this world
That I'll always choose to love. From now on..
You are only someone that I used to love.

my head feels like its gonna explode any moment.
planned to pon sch today..n dis is wad i get.
ha..retribution.
ok, @ least i haf a legitimate reason 4 NOT gg 2 sch.

e weather is reallie unbearable man!
hot hot hot.
wad e hell is wrong wif it??!?!
its totally killin everyone's concentratn!
grrrr...!
e worst weather i haf ever experienced man.
makin mi so grouchy.

ame ponned sch yest..
left mi n mei mei to fend 4 ourselves!!
dat horrible gal..v jian ah! bish!
was quite an ok day lar..
pang was funny as usual..
made e whole openin cermony rehearsal
much more bearable wif his nonsense!
though i still cant get over e fact dat
ms choy is so darn inefficient!
makin us rehearse WALKIN TO E THIRD FLOOR!
ha..madness.
n i had to miss mentorin cos of dat.
grumpy grumpy GRUMP.

played asshole daidee wif mei mei, julie n liz..
it was damn THRILLING!
heh..n i m proud to announce dat i managed
to climb up e ranks! asshole 2 to KING..! tada!!
julie, our alliance rocks :)

went home n slept n slept n slept...
@ least it took my mind off stuff..
i dno wads wrong wif mi man..
i jus kip thinkin these days..
of wad COULD haf been.
knowin perfectly well dat it wld nv happen now.
but i jus cant help myself.
both of their re-appearences. boo.
i dun welcome it at all.
i wonder if i m doing e rite thg now
by ignorin both of them n shuttin them
out of my life.
well, we will nv b wad we were again.
so i dun wanna make myself vulnerable
to hurtin again.
n i simply gotta accept dat. even if it kills mi.

dis sux.
dno wad i m ramblin abt too.
guss i nv reallie got over u..
n i hate myself 4 dat.
ok, wadever.

realised dat bloggin always brg out e worst
emotions in mi ever.
but i jus nid an outlet to vent lar huh.
dun worry, i m fine..
n not as distraught as these entries make mi out to b..
sorry..
jus bear wif mi k..

i need sumone brand new.
i cant afford to kip gg back to my past.
e past dat haunts mi even till now.
if there is a prince charming,
can u pls hurry?
abandon dat slow white horse of yours..
n take a planeeee!
u slowpoke old tortoise..
i want u here now.

2005-02-14T20:49:00.000+08:00

Where you are seems to be
As far as an eternity
Outstretched arms open hearts
And if it never ends then when do we start?
I will never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive.

3 more hours to e end of vdae.
yayyyy..!
hahaha..ok fine, i admit,
it was NOT dat bad :)
thx to these special ppl hu made dis highly
lovey dovey day more bearable 4 mi:

-Dearest planetarians!
ame, i loveeeeeee e pres! n u too! breakfast
was a nice surprise! chi zai kou li, tian zai xin li! :)
Mei mei, 4 makin everythg seem alright wif all
ur nonsense! lovelove.

-Chris..
4 e lovely cookies! its nicer than ours! humph.
we concede defeat! haha..

-Qing..
kit kat choco..but sadly, e tragic piece of choco
has melted to an unrecognizable state!
haha..thx 4 e hug too :)

-Julie..
4 dat cute "chick"..ok, it was sum
unidentified animal..but cute nonetheless! ;)

-Wei Ying
e choco was yummy! a little too melted though!!
haha..choco paste..

-Lizzie
pretty candle..pretty giver! haha..so much effort
ah! -shocking- heh. lizzy fizzy bizzy..my dear javelin
partner! heh..

yup, n many many others..
its a day of friendship :)
e weather was horrible though!
unbearably HOT!
wads wrong wif it?!?!??!
loooooong tiring day..
met up wif wm after sch @ tm..
as usual, i was subjected to waiting 4 ages!
had to c all those ultra mushy n lovey dovey
couples prancing ard mi..grrrr...!!
haha..fine, i AM sore.

eh thx wm 4 e pres though!
u reallie noe how to appease mi huh..ben si le.
had a gd laugh @ ur nonsense which i shall b
kind enuff not to post here! ;)
hope e cookie 4 u was edible!! haha..
it had received several complaints today! heh..
hmmm..dis weird guy suddenly asked wm if
we were a couple..
tink they were betting or sumthg...
silly billy goose!!

oh yar, zy is in e hospital..
gosh. dengue fever or sumthg..
dat poor guy..
take care k..get well soon :)
will go visit him soon..

reached home at abt 9..
n he was @ e bus stop waitin 4 mi..
wif brownies.
i dno wad to say. darn.
poof. jus disappear.

2005-02-13T00:40:00.000+08:00

You will always be a special part of me
You will always be a special memory
I will always cherish the wonderful moments
You have given me
You are in my heart wherever I may be
All the times we shared will always be to me
Songs my heart will sing refreshing melodies
I will put together all of your laughter
Like a symphony
I will remember you wherever I may be.

today was a super fun day!!
a day wif my planetarians.
heh..
they came over to my place today..
n those disgustin ppl!
used e oranges frm my hse to bai nian
to my mummy!!
hahaha..made mi sneak e oranges out to them!
so jian!! ;)

we sang karaoke..
played mahjong..
gambled wif blackjack..
Cycled..
(ok, ame had to scramble along, tryin desperately
to keep up wif us ;) heh. )
n BAKED!
we ought to b damn proud of ourselves!!
it turned out sooooo pretty..
n dis time ard,
we DIN use a mix! :)

baked two batches..ard 100..
was reallie eventful man..
n we haf special ones 4 chris n chu!
vvv niceeee ones...
n chris's has a happie chant cast on it!
to b cheerful always :)
it wld work! -promised-

mei mei's mummy picked her up at
ard midnight..
boo..
today reminded mi of e events
one yr ago.
haunting memories. shoo!

vdae is here..
it has been one yr.
filled wif hope. zest n excitement.
doing his vdae pres..bakin..n stuff.
innocent happy times.
it was all pretty n sugar-coated.
now, e day jus seem so pointless.
i cant c e beauty in it no more.
wad ever happened to dat happiness i felt?

no, its not abt C.
wadever i m feelin now is not abt him.
i experienced disppointment thx to him.
felt pain in its rawest form.
but it came quickly, ended quickly.
though he is one of e factors.
he din leave as great as an impact.
saw him @ tm yest..
n i managed to smile n b friendly..
wif no emotions stirred up.
immune.
i m jus tired of this whole mess.
nonsensical bullshitty stuff.

love.
feb 14 is a day 4 dat rite?
i noe i m being cynical here..
but i believe in dat no more.
love seemed so simple.
u love n get loved back.
idealistic notion which jus seem so hard
4 mi to attain.
i m tired of holdin on to e beliefs
dat once seemed possible.
how much longer muz i cry?
how long more muz i wait 4 happiness to b
my fren again?
i hate it when it makes ppl i care 4 deeply sad.
go away.

wad haf i gotten myself into?
dis is not how i was jus one yr ago.
but when e guy hu was e most perfect in ur eyes
disppoint u, u jus cant brg urself to believe.
sadly, u changed mi.

So we'll whisper a dream here in the darkness..Watching the stars till they're gone. And when even the memories have all faded away..These days go on and on.

2005-02-09T10:18:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year :)
went bac to dhs yesterday..
i miss it so much..dats my "happy" land.
btw, its over.
but it no longer concerns mi =)
yup..thanks wm 4 e chocos..n everythin else.
u r e bestest fren a gal can ask 4.
i m ok now.

Baby, can you stop the rain from falling?
Won't you chase my clouds away?
I'd give anything to see the sun again
Only you can stop these tears from falling.

2005-02-08T03:38:00.000+08:00

There is no such thing as fairy tales
Twinkle twinkle little star
Why do my dreams seem so far
Up above the world so high
Wont somebody tell me why can you help me
Can you help me out
Can you tell me what love is all about
Cause I never known it for myself
Dont believe in fairy tales
That's why I dont believe in fairy tales no more

We all noe e story dun we?
Frm e fairytales tt we grew up wif..
Boy meets girl
Den they fall in love..forever.
But I know better.
A tale of the reality.
Here it goes..

Once upon a time,
In a seemingly idealistic world,
Untainted and unscarred,
She met him.
They shared a moment together.
A dance tt she wld nv 4get.
He was perfect.
All tt she ever dreamt of alll her life.
Bliss.
A happiness tt she nv knew of.
Overwhelmed her. Took over all her senses.
They loved each others company,
Developing a bond so strong.
He was happy. She was happy too.
He cld make her smile like no one cld.
N he promised her tt he wld do all it takes
Jus to c her smile.

She had another guy in her life.
One tt she too cared 4 deeply.
But not in e same way.
He was always there 4 her.
A part of her life.
They shared a past.
Innocent times, unbridled freedom.
It jus came at an inappropriate time.
Frenz were e onli thg they cld b.
Taken 4 granted perhaps.
She ignored him. Foolishly.
Wanting the fireworks love.
But like fireworks,
It was beautiful. Magical. Explosive.
And fleeting.

Perfect beginning. Perfect relationship.
A less than perfect end.

It ended. One fine sunny day.
They grew apart. Distanced.
He was not sure if she liked him.
She was not respondin e way he liked her to.
But dats jus how she is.
She knew deep down, he had a place in her heart.
But sadly, he wld nv ever get to noe tt.
He left b4 he cld realise it.
Opting 4 e easy way out.
Wanting another who loved him more
Than he loved her.
He nv gave her e chance to show dat
She cld also love him as much as her.
She cld love him too.

She was sad but nv let it show.
Rather let it bottle up within her.
Shutting it out.
It was her character.
Her frenz saw her pain thru her eyes.
They was nothin they cld do
But watch on helplessly.
Lik a ray of light in her darkness,
There was still him.
E one hu was there by her side all along.
The other him.

He was like an angel.
Watching over her. Being there 4 her.
It was a diff kind of love she felt 4 him.
Less overwhelmin. But jus as sweet.
He pulled her out of her pain.
He nursed e wounds.
She was grateful.
Slowly, she was happy once more.
He made it all alright.

Thx to her frenz,
He spent an unforgettable nite wif her on her bdae.
They tokked. Abt him n abt her.
And everythg seemed right.
Sadly, it was not.
She wanted him to study.
Did not want her to affect his studies.
She let him go.
Ignored him.
Building a fence between him n her.
Leaving him out.
It was her own fault. Sheer stupidity.
Asked 4 it. Deserved it.
But all she wanted was 4 him to have no regrets.
She did not wanna feel guilty.
She loved him.

In e end, she was e one regretting.
If only he knew.
He found someone new.
She was lost.
E life buoy tt she had always been clinging to
Had a new passenger.
Din noe wad to do.
E scar in her heart wld nv b mended again.

She was numbed. Tainted.
She used to believe in love.
Used to believe in fairy tales.
But now, she had jus started to learn dat
There's no such thing as fairy tales
Is a good story supposed to end
Unhappily ever after
Just as wonderful as it begins?
She cld nv love again.

2005-02-05T22:48:00.000+08:00

dis is earth-shattering.
Potentially life-threatenin! hahaha...
Mummy jus bot 2 more bottles of
pineapple tarts!
makin it a grand total of
EIGHT different kinds of pineapple tarts!
gosh. dis is madness.

2005-02-04T19:26:00.000+08:00

when wld u appear?
e one dat i can love wif all my heart.
n not jus wif fragmented pieces of wads left.
perhaps, i can finally b happy den.truly happy.
jus let mi meet u.

Here's another morning without you
Here's another day..will I get through it
Without breaking down?
Haven't seen the sun since you've been gone
Like my heart, I lost it when you left me
And it can't be found
How can I go on?

Baby, I'd be living on memories
Of you and me
All the love we made
All those tender nights
And those endless days
They're all here inside

Baby, can you stop the rain from falling?
Won't you chase my clouds away?
I'd give anything to see the sun again
Only you can stop these tears from falling
I can't face another day
Baby, can you stop
Can you stop the rain?
Ev'rywhere I go, I feel you there
Following my footsteps like a shadow
Of my broken heart

Sometimes, it's a pair of passing eyes
Or it's just the way someone is talking
And there you are
Am I all alone?
Don't you ever wake up
And reach for me
Where I used to be?
Is there any chance?
I just can't believe
You're not lonely, too
Just for me and you

If you were here for only one night
Baby, I know you'd remember
'Cause loving you once wasn't time enough
I know we can make it together
Together

Baby, stop the rain
Won't you chase my clouds away?
I'd give anything to see the sun again
Only you can stop these tears of mine from falling
I can't face another day
Baby, can you stop
Can you, can you stop the rain?
How can I live without you, baby?
How could I let you go?

2005-02-03T18:20:00.000+08:00

yay!
tmr's fri again! :)
meetin chu after sch tmr too!
n its gonna b CNY vvvv soon!
life is gd :)

e wk past by sooo fast..
went to seoul garden on tue..
wif ame, mei mei, ash, julie n liz!
v fun!
liz is sooooooooo motherly!
hahaha..kept cookin n puttin food on my plate!
gd service man!
we were so so so so famished b4 tt man..
practically ran there! heh..
oh yar!
how can we ever 4get poor julie's unfortunate accident
wif dat dangling sotong!
muahaha..
poor gal..looked so distraught n helpless by it..
laughed so hard @ her..
but e sight was REALLY hilarious! heh..
n we ate n we ate n we ate n we ate..
ate until we almost exploded..gosh.

had mentorin on wed..
prepared e worksheets 4 e pri 6 mentees..
dylon n abdul rahman are sooo adorable!
hahaha..they r totally poles apart though..
one so hyper, e other so sensible.
e glitter frm e card he made 4 mi las wk
is all over my bag still..argh..
cant get it off..
but i like e card..so sweet :)
i m reallie beginnin to enjoy these
mentorin sessions v much..
gives mi a sense of fulfilment.

hahaha..i officially haf a fan club man!
although it made up of pri 3 kids but still..heh.
they r sooooo funny!
jus came up to mi n started yakkin..
praised my EVERYTHING!
hahaha..even how i smelt..
touched my face, touched my hair..gosh..
n said dylon was v lucky to haf mi as his mentor..
it was so amusin!
even wanted my hp num n my email add..blah..
n they r NOT even in e mentorin program..
ie, i dun even noe them.
hahaha...kids say e darnest thgs..
but they made my day :)

yup..nothin much happened.
an otherwise mundane life.
n i cant wait to CNY! ;)

2005-01-31T19:33:00.000+08:00

I never promised you a happy ending
You never said you wouldnt make me cry
But summer love will keep us warm long after
Our autumn goodbye, autumn goodbye

Thinking of you and the love of our lives
In the sweet summertime
So sad but true so true..so true
We must leave it behind
In our hearts, in our minds

From April through September
Bittersweet was the love that we shared
Don't forget
I remember

Memories can fade
But my heart has a place for the smile on your face
And maybe someday we can be more than friends
Love will find us again

Red leaves and blue tomorrows
Time will give back the love that we shared
On the time that we borrowed
We'll leave behind the summertime
But our hearts, our minds
They will remind
We won't forget the day we met
The day we cried

heya! today was a v nice day :)
met mei mei in e morn..
n she totally cracked mi up when she told mi
ame's predicament @ e polyclinic!!
omg..its was so hilarious!
heh..e doc actually tot ame PREGNANT!
hello! pregnant?!?!?!
hahaha..ben si le!
wad a silly goose of a doc!
poor "preggy huang xiao lu"! (",)

hahaha..tink there's sumthg wrong wif mi lately man..
haf been sooo hyper!
heh..irritated e shit out of ame jus now durin gp huh ;)
poor lulu..
okie, wad else?
hmm..did quite well 4 e hist test surprisingly!
haha..but it ws reallie by fluke!
din include e theories in e essay cos
i din study them!!
hahaha..not dat i m sum genius...
i m lucky huh :)

mr conrad is a big meano!
grrr..!
qi si wo le!
hahaha..v a***** meh?!
heh..tink muz b i teased him too much le!

did child labour 4 e horrible
PE dept today man!
exploitation of kids!
carried loads of wooden planks to e hall..
4 mj's openin ceremony..
dno y they so kan cheong though..
its like, one WHOLE mth away!!
hai..bully pauline chen!
bu xiang huo le ah!

had to stay in sch till 5 for sum silly briefin
wif regards to openinn ceremony!
n guess wad, in e end e briefin was so pointless lar!
din even involve us!
wad a total bullshitty waste of time!
their inefficiency amazes mi.
ha..while we were waitin, ame n i had dis
sudden urge to go runnin.
so we went to e track n ran wif e netballers..
hahaha..utter madness.
felt v gd though..

mr pang is a silly billy!
hahaha..
tink we totally terrorized him
wif all sorts of "intellectual" quiz!
poor guy..was so stumped!
heh..under him 4 openin hse cermony..
n we r in refreshments! :)

toked abt growin old jus now..
jus hu do u envision growin old together?
well, dID u noe dat i once tot
i cld c myself growin old wif u..
but it has since morphed into nothin more than
a dream.

I could say that I will be all you need..But that would be a crime. I know I wld only hurt you..I know I wld only make you cry. I m not the one you are needing. I love you..goodbye.

wm n 3mp

2005-01-30T09:30:00.000+08:00

There's a girl in the mirror
I wonder who she is
Sometimes I think I know her
Sometimes I really wish I did

There's a story in her eyes
Lullabies and goodbyes
When she's looking back at me
I can tell her heart is broken easily
Cause the girl in my mirror
Is crying out tonight
And there's nothing I can tell her
To make her feel alright

Oh the girl in my mirror
Is crying cause of you
And I wish there was something
Something I could do
If I could I would tell her
Not to be afraid
The pain that she's feeling
The sense of loneliness will fade
So dry your tears and rest assured
Love will find you like before
When she's looking back at me
I know nothing really works that easily

I cant believe its what I see
That the girl in the mirror
The girl in the mirror is me

Cause the girl in my mirror
Is crying out tonight
And there's nothing I can tell her
To make her feel alright
Oh the girl in my mirror
Is crying cause of you
I wish there was something
I wish there was something I could do.

my legs r archin!!
n its all wm's fault!

met wm at bedok..
supposed to meet 1 30 but
as usual tt horrible guy was late!!
he was actually awake n abt to leave his hse alreadi..
but he went back to slp accidentally!
my gosh!
can u believe it..
hahahaha..his stupidity amazes mi ;) heh.
luckily, he pacified mi wif ferroro rochers..
dat guy is damn jian! ;)
n i fell 4 it.
hahaha btw, is YOU ask ME to pei u go out one ah..
dun twist facts!!
ha..nvm..
@ least u willingly admitted dat i m
pauline e great!
heh..gd boy :)

i realised sumthg---
whenever i go out wif wm,
it wld involve lots n lots of walkin!!!
argh! wo de ming hao ku ah!
went to bugis, suntec n parkway..
n my poor head was subjected to his tyranny
sooooo many times!
wah!
claims he is addicted to it..nonsense!!
hahaha..i m expectin e constellation
jigsaw 4 vdae ah :)

went to parkway 4 sum coffee..
hahaha..dno y i was so hyper..
tink i went mad. muz b e caffeine..
"entertained" wm greatly huh! heh..
yum..mocha..
chris asked wm out 4 dinner..
so after tt, i rushed off to watch "findin neverland"
at tm wif e gals..
hahaha..courtesy of wm! :)
sponsored my cab fare..ha..
e sweet wm is back..heh.

e movie was great!!
hahaha..
e onli downer was dat ame had to
surrender all her candies to e guy b4 enterin..
hahaha..dat silly goose!!
always kena caught de..
i love michael! he is so adorable..
was vvvv touchin n sad..
not sad in a tragic way but in a bittersweet way.

after e movie, we went outside to sit n tok..
hahaha..had a great time wif them man!
though they were subjected to my nonsense as usual!
heh..i felt so drunk.
i love 3mp :)
went to meet wm again after they left..
n he was late again!
though dis time it was my fault! heh..
e stars were v nice.

i felt so funny.
indecribable emotions.
shi fu sh shi fuuuu..
suffered e brunt of my frustrations.
hahaha..ni de ming hao ku ah!
even let mi slap him to vent..
so mani times! poor guy..
n had to listen to mi sing summore!!
hahahah..funny..
but wadever it is, he always makes mi feel better.
he jus has his ways lar..
thx a lot. u r e best..

reached home at ard midnight..
exhausted.
both mentally n physically..
i dno wad to tink anymore..
is there no end to all dis rubbish?
wadever it is, i m not lettin myself fall back in..
its funny how it still manages to affect mi huh..
over sumthg so trivial.

hahaha..i m rambling again..
received a sms frm clarence..
all his mushy mushy nonsense
made mi tink of those days..
e innocence of it all.

I cannot cry..Because you know that's weakness in your eyes. I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh everyday of my life. My heart can't possibly break..When it wasn't even whole to start with.

2005-01-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

y m i still thinkin of u?
its not supposed to b like dis.

2005-01-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

Lay a whisper, on my pillow
Leave the winter on the ground
I wake up lonely, there's air of silence
In the bedroom and all around
Touch me now
I close my eyes and dream away

It must have been love
But its over now
It must have been good
But I lost it somehow
It must have been love
But its over now
From the moment we touched
Till the time has run out

Make believing we are together
That I'm sheltered by your heart
But in and outside
I turn to water like a teardrop
In your palm
And it's so hard winter's day
I dream away

It must have been love
But it's over now
It must have been good
But I lost it somehow
It must have been love
But it's over now
From the moment we touched
Till the time has run out

It must have been love
But it's over now
It was all that I wanted
Now I'm living without
It must have been love
But it's over now
It's where the water flows
It's where the wind blows
It's over now...

must have been love by Roxette..
beautiful things dun last do they?
only serving to make u yearn 4 more..
n @ e same time, makin u lose faith in love.

today was a gd day..hahaha..
sheer lameness has overtaken 3menplanet!
jiu ming ah...
kiki, lala n lulu!!
hahaha..4 sum weird reason, ame jus LOVES
to b called lulu! dat silly gal! ;) heh!!
(ok, i tink she is reallie gonna murder mi)
our new song, "Fightin books, fightin e A levels..
e powerpuff worms! "
okie, dats is reallie lame! hahahah..

our whole class went bonkers
after hist tut today man..
dancin n singin away..hahaha..
liane was so obssessed wif e new couple dance..
while ame n mei mei cld onli watch on
helplessly as i attempted to invent a new dance
involvin e broom..heh.. ;)
e new n improved tango!

class interaction was bad!!!!
i tink i haf depleted ALL my brain juices!!!
haaha..e "deprived game" game was quite silly..
n e "wads e time" game is too mind boggling!
hahaha..
luckily i managed to solve it
@ e las moment man! so funny...
n e way to solve it is super stupid!!!!!
grrrr...!

went home 4 a HUGE nap!!
heh..i m energized! :)
had such a sweet dream..

2005-01-24T20:26:00.000+08:00

There's a girl in my mirror crying tonight, and there's nothing I can say to make her feel alright.

ha! i beat e monday blues!!! heh..
pauline e great! ;)
it started out so bad though...
woke up late..den was late 4 e econs test..
tsk tsk..
in e end, din haf time to do conclusion!
grr..!
dno y mi n mei mei was in such a chirpy mood
after dat though..yakked n yakked n yakked!
haiyo!
dat horrible gal was so naughty today!!!
bully mi like nobody's business liddat!
wah! ;'(

Mei mei: "wanna bet?" -menacing look-
Me: "bet lar...." -whimpers pathetically-

hahaha..tink u guys wont get it anyway!
oh yar! ame was reallie silly today!
she actually FORGOT abt e test!
happily came to sch @ 9..
WHEN E TEST WAS @ 7 45!!!!!
wahahah! ben si le!!!!
in e end she had 2 beg mdm to let her retake..
tsk tsk! =O
mei yong de dong xi! heh...

had a nice chat wif mei mei too..
well..i hope u make a wise decision dat
u wont regret..
tink u r rite though..
momentarily shattered or prolonged pain?
i reallie dno.
let nature take its course ba :)
hmm..was tinkin abt dis jus now too..
tink i wont noe how to face him..
it wld b jus too painful.
but i dun tink it wld happen..i hope.
anyway, u muz persuade wang tai hou
to allow u to stay over k..
den we can wallow in self pity together! ;) hahaha..

mr pang was funny today as usual..
i really suspect he is frm ISD man!!!
got e undercover look..hahaha..
nv fail to crack mi up..
his wife is one lucky woman! :)

pe was slackkkkkkk!
practically everyone was walkin!
managed to toked to qing 4 a while..
she finally has a gd idea 4 kimmy!!
heh..approved!
luckily he din hear wad we were sayin huh..
suddenly popped out of nowhere liddat..

to qing: hmmm..i will b ok..dun worry..
thx 4 ur concern though..love ya..

went to mac wif ash n my planetarians after tt..
i reallie like listenin to ash tok..
she is jus so interestin! e way she tell us stories..
jus like mamee..entertainin.

okie, lots of lit hw tonite..
victorian writing..boo..

It was all that I wanted..Now I m living without.

2005-01-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

It's over and done but the heartache lives on inside
Who's the one you're clinging to instead of me tonight?
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion that's taken me over

Tied up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
You know that there'll be
Nobody left in this world to hold me tight
Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight.

Emotion..by the Beegees. v sad huh..

i feel so draineddd n mentally exhausted.
argh..
n e thg is,
i m NOT even makin much progress!
sux man..
tmr seems like a really horrible day..
i got e monday blues!!

Thgs tt i m dreadin:
1. Wakin up early
2. Econs essay Test
3. PE
4. School ( nid i explain further?!)

c'mon pauline chen!
where is ur fightin spirit..
its wk 4 alreadi..
oh man..time flies huh..darn.
yea..was tokin to wm jus now..
n it reminded mi-- Feb 9.
2nd mth anniversary..
hahaha..
shld b going out wif wm next wk ba..
heh..e onli thg i look 4ward to
amidst e studyin!

oh yar!
patrol dinner is on fri!
cant wait to c all of them!
guides is where lots of my sweet
memories of sec days r..
i miss those days.
but e thg is, e road race is on fri too!!
hmm..dun mind runnin..
but it wld b a mad rush...
ha..wld tink of sumthg i m sure ;)

din do much dis wk end..
slept alot, ate alot!!
feel so bloated!
heh..i shld b feelin recharged!!
yea man..

hist tutorials, here i cum..

2005-01-22T13:23:00.000+08:00

They read you Cinderella;
you hoped it would come true.
That one day your Prince Charming
would come rescue you.
You like romantic movies;
you never will forget.
The way you felt when Romeo kissed Juliet.
All this time that you've been waiting;
You don't have to wait no more.

I can love you like that.
I would make you my world:
Move Heaven and Earth, if you were my girl.
I will give you my heart, be all that you need;
Show you you're everything that's precious to me.
If you give me a chance: I can love you like that.

I'd never make a promise
I don't intend to keep.
So when I say forever, forever's what I mean.
I'm no Casanova,
but I swear this much is true:
I'll be holding nothing back, when it comes to you.
You dream of love that's everlasting.

You want tenderness;I've got tenderness,
And I see through to the heart of you.
If you want a man who understands,
You don't have to look very far.

I can love you like that.
I would make you my world:
Move Heaven and Earth, if you were my girl.
I will give you my heart, be all that you need;
I can love you like that.

a beautiful song.
tink i wld die if any1 sang dis to mi!
so sweet..
i wld jus melt..

hmm..
i spent a lovely day yesterday!!
heh heh heh..happiness.
din do much...
spent lots of quality time wif my family..
n dat beats everythin else dun u tink?

i realised dat i m actually v lucky..
a normal family..being e youngest..
gettin sheltered n protected always..
n thus..
i dun understand how i can b such a brat
n feel so discontented wif all dat i haf
@ times.
i m by far more fortunate
than lots of ppl out there..
so its prob time dat i stop lamentin abt my life..
n start being appreciative :)

yea man..
hu cares abt petty little matters of e heart..
n those superficial issues dat
still manage to affect mi..
ha..i hate to tink. wads e pt?
it wont change anythin..
n so, i shall channel my brains to
more useful avenue..like STUDYING! (",)

i got better thgs to do!
more impt ppl to love! :)
my frenz n family..
yup, i can b happy..n i shall b!

hahaha..tink i shld go write a self-
help bk or sumthg..
but i wld try not let myself b bogged down
by silly n petty little thgs anymore..
yea, life does seem meaningless @ times..
often makin us lose faith in life..but
happiness is a choice :)
b happy..
n hope wld b restored.

i haf my family n frenz dat matter alot.
dat is enuff!
i dun nid anythin more
to make my life more meaningful.

of cos, being upset is not a crime..
as long as u noe how to pick urself up
amidst those pain n tears..
u wld emerge a stronger person.
one gd example of such a guy is shi fu ba..
hmmm..
he is reallie a perfect example of a guy
hu is emotionally strong beyond words.
sumthg i admire alot abt him.

another wld b mei mei,
otherwise known as kiki! ;) heh..
i tink she has coped v well frm all
e probs dat she faced in her life recently..
n has cum a long way since those gloomy days..
u haf grown my dear..

2005 is gonna b a gd yr!
3menplanet..we can do it!
esp wif our yellow convertible next yr ya!
heh..
though its onli 4 a day,
it wld b our motivation! :)